Temporary Insanity -- Insanity Strikes Again!

cellphone charms.

2009-05-27T23:06:00.004+08:00

hahaha. sabi ng nanay ko ang daming nakasabit sa cellphone ko. ang sabi ko, mas importante nga sakin ung mga nakasabit eh kaysa sa fone ko. haha. Pero noon un, nung hindi ko pa gamit cellphone ng kapatid ko. pero dahil cellphone na ng kapatid ko ang gamit ko, parehong hindi pwede mawala na sakin. haha.

Big Bang - yan ung sa lanyard ko.

Hey! JJ - binili ko dahil gusto ko ng isang hey!jj na chibi. hahaha!

YunJae - dahil maka YunJae ako... noon. :D pwede parin hanggang ngayonl. pero torn ako between YunJae at Soulmates.

Micky - binili ko sa bangkok... marami yan, pero pumili lang ako ng isang isasabit sa fone ko. kapag lahat sinabi ko, sobrang dami na nun! :D

Maria - lately kasi MARIA na ang tawag sakin ng mga bitch kong kaibigan. pero sila lang ang pwedeng tumawag sakin ng MARIA. hahaha. Maria naman kasi talga pangalan ko.

~~ wala lng. :D

Humahaba na buhok ko.

2009-05-27T20:45:00.003+08:00

alam ko.. parang tanga ung title ko. haha. gusto ko lang sabihin na humahaba na buhok ko... ibig sabihin... lumilipas na talga ang oras... at wala parin akong nagagawang matino.

ngayon... ngayon lang ulit ako magsasalita ng ganito. minsanan lang to, kaya hayaan niyo na ako.

hindi ko alam kung malulungkot ako o ano... dahil hanggang ngayon, nahihirapan parin ako tanggapin ang lahat ng mga naganap sa buhay ko... iniisip ko.. after all the mishaps that i went through and then survived, ngayon pa? ngayon pa ako umurong at nag decide na itapon ang lahat? i know.. dapat hindi na ganito ang way of thinking ko ngayon... dahil walang mangyayari sakin kung babalik at babalik ako at mag-dedepress-depressan. Hindi ako makaka move on kung hanggang ngayon mag-iinarte ako. ilang buwan na ang nakalipas? isa... dalawa... mag-iisang taon na din halos. pero hanggang ngayon, ung sakit na naramdaman ko para itapon lahat ng pinaghirapan ko, andito parin. sa tuwin iniisip ko kung san ako magsisimula ulit, hindi ko alam kung ano dapat kong maramdaman. lagi kong sinasabi, andito na ako... ano pa ba dapat kong gawin? edi maging masaya at tanggapin kung ano meron ako ngayon.

un ang ginagawa ko... at ang hirap hirap. ang hirap pilitin. pero ginagawa ko. kasi kahit papano, meron... meron akong natitirang pag-asa na alam kong malalagpasan ko kung ano man ang nangyayari sakin ngayon.

kaya ko.. pero ngayon, pagbigyan niyo muna ako. ganito lang talga ako pag nahihirapan ako.

Gannun talaga....

2009-05-16T23:01:00.003+08:00

oo... mejo... nalulungkot ako. xempre.. dahil nanghihinayang ako.. pero ganun talaga... tapos na un, and there's no point of going back... i have to move on. pero may mga times na dumadating talga un ganitong panahon... nalulungkot, napapagod. sana ganito... sana ganon... ang daming iniisip... ang daming ginagawa. nakakalungkot. nakakapagod.

pero eto na to. mag mumukmok pa ba ako? magiging masaya na lang ako. tutal may mga tao naman sa paligid ko na tumutulong sakin para maging masaya ako. may dahilan para maging masaya. :,)

salamat sa inyo... salamat SAYO.

good night.

Minsan Lang. :)

2009-04-26T19:53:00.004+08:00

haha. kababawan lang naman tong ikkwento ko. :)

kanina kasi, may ginawa ako na matagal ko ng hindi nagagawa. ^^

uyy.. ano iniisip mo? haha. gago!

nag brownout kasi kanina. sa dahilan na hindi ko alam.

eh hindi pa ako nakakaligo buong araw dahil lahat ng kapatid ko umuwi ngayon.

ang daming bata sa paligid. xempre nakipag harutan ako.

so nung pag-alis nila, sabi ko, makaka-ligo na ako.

pero bago ako naligo, nag linis muna ako ng buong bahay. haha. o ha. o ha. hahaha!

maya2x, nung maliligo na ako, ABA! Nag brownout!!!

Tapos kung minamalas ka nga naman, walang tubig sa banyo ko.

Anong choice ko? Nagmamantika na ako. xempre kelangan ko talaga maligo.

So bumaba ako para dun maligo. Eh dahil brownout nga, edi MADILIM!

Eh xempre, mas pipiliin kong wag maligo kaysa maligo sa dilim noh. HAHA!!!

Pero ano akala niyo? hindi na talga ako maliligo? haha.

Ginawa ko, pumunta ako sa bakuran namin, at dun ako naligo. ^^ haha!

wala naman tao sa bahay kundi ako lang at si manang.

tapos dahil may bahay na sa likod at sa gilid namin, hindi na talaga tanaw ung likod namin.

kaya dun ako naligo. :D (Kelangan talga ikwento ko to noh?)

Eh sa aliw na aliw ako eh. Dahil bata pa yata ako nung huli akong naligo sa likod ng bahay namin.

hahaha!! namiss ko lang maging bata. :)

kasi ramdam na ramdam ko... tumatanda na ako.

bukod sa nakikita kong lumalaki na mga pamangkin ko...

ramdam ko na dumadami na ang responsibilidad ko sa buhay.

...dumadami na ang dapat kong isipin at gawin para sa sarili ko.

tsk... buhay nga naman. :D

dearest friend, Kampai!

2009-03-25T03:15:00.000+08:00

haha. its really nice talking to someone who knows you so well. someone that i haven't seen/talked for the longest time, and yet without asking any questions, we found ourselves understanding the situation around us. I am glad that nothing's changed. Even if we haven't talked for the longest time, no matter what kind of mishaps happened to us and to the people around us, we stayed strong and we did our best to protect our friendship.

one hell of a true friend.
Para sa aking kaibigan, kaya natin to.
KAMPAI! In time, we will build our dreams.

Seriousness. =)

2009-02-22T18:44:00.003+08:00

i know i have to write something... since i have a lot to say diba?
where should i start anyway? hahaha!

Now Playing: One Last Cry [Micky Yoochun Version]

i have mixed emotions right now .. tungkol saan? sa maraming bagay. (ang drama!)
since the year started, i was thinking what should i do with my life. i'm in this situation that no one expected that will happen... hindi ko talga alam kung ano ggwin ko. ano nga ba dapat kong gawin sa buhay ko? i know there are a lot of things that should be done. pero anong ginagawa ko? WALA. i decided to stay insensitive with all the things that is happening around me. and till now, i don't have plans on doing something about it. Although there are times na iniisip ko kung pano ko aayusin ung ginulo ko.. but at the end of the day i always end up rejecting the 'thought.' i know i should do something. but the problem is i really don't know where should i start, and how will i do it.

geeesh. (i am being serious here.)

^_^ x~x~x

Anyway, I went to Bangkok,Thailand last Feb 6 and i really enjoyed my stay there even though i really don't have that much ~~budget~~. hahahaha! I wasn't able to shop like crazy or whatsoever. But who cares? :D No one among my bitches give a damn care. Although i was able to see some nice places... It's good enough for me. As long as i am fulfilled why i went there, everything is perfect. I wouldn't trade my experience in Bangkok for anything. I went crazy & was happy... more than enough. It all seems so surreal till now. SM Ent is the best and YG Ent too of course!. YG. Wait for us! 2010? hahahaha! [you got what i'm talking about!?]

^_^ x~x~x

errrrrrrrr. GAAAAAAH. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!

Wala Lang!

2009-02-19T20:50:00.004+08:00

i'm not in the mood to write anything parin. bakit kaya?
sa daming nangyari for the past few weeks.. WALA.
boring sa life.
*deads*

So many things to do, so little time.

2009-01-30T00:26:00.003+08:00

Note: nagmumura po ako.
errrr. gumawa na talaga ako ng listahan ko for today. kanina, habang kumakain ako mag-isa, talagang iniisip ko kung ano ano ba ung mga bagay na dapat kong gawin for this week. paking shet, sa tuwing iniisip ko natutuliro ako. gusto ko tumambling ng todo todo. hindi ko alam kung ano uunahin ko. nyeta talga. ang dami kong iniisip ngayon. ang dami kong dapat ayusin. =,( nakakapagod.

pero ano pa ba choice ko? tumunganga na lng? xempre kelangan may gawin ako para kahit papano, may silbi naman ako diba? edi sinulat ko nga kanina ung mga dapat kong gawin. at least ung mga pinaka importanteng dapat hanggang saturday. sa tingin ko wala naman akong nakalimutan na importante talaga. maaga na din ako umuwi ngayon para may masimulan ako......

nyeta talaga. sinundan ko ung listahan. tinignan ko kung ano ung mga pwede ko ng simulan. kapag hindi kaya, yung susunod sa listahan ang gawin. aba, akalain mo, ampota talga, lahat sinubukan ko simulan, nasimulan ko nga. wala naman akong natapos. kamusta naman un. nyetaaaa. nakisabay pa tong katawan ko. ang sama kasi ng pakiramdam ko pa. hay.

bukas ang basagan, mag homecoming kami bukas. anong oras na matatapos un? bahala na. walang tulugan bukas. tapos derecho na ng meeting. nyeta talga. nakakapagod.

nairita pa ako kanina. pasensya na talga, minsan hindi ko na lang talga alam kung ano ba dapat kong sabihin o gawin. wala. ewan. tangina talga. pero kanina, talagang gusto pumutok ng buchi ko. gusto kong sabihin, ~~wag mo na lang ako pakeelamanan.~~ pero xempre hindi ko naman sabihin yun. kahit papano, hindi dapat.

buti na lang, may mga bagay/tao pa na nagpapasaya sakin, kahit napapagod ako ngayon. may paking shet na bitch akong kaibigan. na kahit nagmumurahan at kulang na lang mag-patayan kami ng literal, mahal parin naming ang isa't isa. at xempre may isang HERO sa mundong ito na nagbibigay ng walang katumbas na kasiyahan sakin... at sa iba pang nagmamahal sa kanya. ayan ha. hindi ko sinosolo. ayoko masulat sa Hitlist.

HQ Version!

2009-01-21T02:59:00.003+08:00

putangna. pinagpawisan ako ng malamig dun ha. pasensya na, napamura talaga ako. hahaha. i have the chance download HQ (High Quality) videos of dbsk na. Hmmm. Wala kayong magagawa, fangirl ako eh. hahaha! Harujusko ~~ phew!

I have no plans of posting actually... but after watching the video in HQ, ay naman talaga. i felt like i need to rant something, jusko. pinagpawisan ako ng malamig! intro pa lang gusto ko ng tumili! kung hindi lang 2:34am na ng umaga, titili talaga ako ng malakas eh.

tao ba yan? hindi. DYOSA yan. hahaha! ayan ang dyosa!! hahaha!
~~ buti nga Dyosa tawag ko eh. si Vane POON ang tawag. amff!!
dapat gumagalaw yan eh.. teka.. bakit hindi? bukas ko na lang aayusin! hahaha!

haynaku!! kahit papano, kahit panandalian, nabawasan ung inis ko. hahahaha!
nakalimutan ko panandalian ung mga bumabagabag sakin! hahaha!!!
o sya, itutulog ko na lng to. hahahaha!!
takte. :)

Malungkot ako. Pero Slight Lang.

2009-01-08T23:36:00.001+08:00

bakit? because i'm fncking alone tonight. I tend to self-pity when i eat alone... so i feel lonely tonight. Although may luto naman, hindi ko lang feel kainin. I wanted to eat something else. (Naglilihi yata kasi ako. Feeling Pregnant.) I wanted to eat Wendy's Baconator... so i called 533-33-33.

He asked for my phone number... i gave it.
He asked for my name... i told him my whole name.
Hindi niya nakuha ung Last Name ko... so i have to spell it for him.
Victory India London London Apple Russia Boy Apple.
He asked the area i live in... i said Pasig City.
He asked for my complete address...........
I was about to give him ... "Greenwoods.. Exec..."
sabay hirit, "Ay Ma'm hindi na po kami nag-dedeliver sa area niyo."
BOOOOOOOO!!!! Goodbye Baconator. I will eat you next time.

Well, this is not the first time though. Kahit KFC they don't deliver in our area anymore. Kasi iba na daw yung quality nung food pag-dating sa place namin. As if ang layo naman namin sobra. Masyado naman. So i end up calling 8-7000. Jollibee Delivery. Paglabas lang kasi ng village namin, may 2 Jollibee. pero pucha, 45minutes parin ang waiting time. Anyway, i have no choice. Take it or leave it.

My mom called. She asked me to tell Boy (our driver) to pick up my younger brother at the studio. Dance Studio -- where he is currently training with his own dance troupe... that is where i used to dance my own crew too. Too bad that i can't dance anymore because i am preoccupied with other things. I was incoming 4th year college when i gave up dancing. I stayed focus 'somehow' with my other responsibilities. I'm so over it, i've had enough experience with dancing. I'm satisfied, i'm happy.

"Uy, ikaw to ha!" my brother said while browsing the multiply site of the dance studio. I was like, "Uy, may kuha pala ako nito! hahaha!" ... i saved it in my computer and looked at it again. i did not notice that actually i'm staring at it long enough... ang nasabi ko na lang, "Wow, i suddenly miss dancing." ... that fact made me feel sadder. But then, there's no point in crying over a spilled milk. I'm over with it, i enjoyed every minute of my dancing carreer. i'm happy. i'm satisfied. It's just that dancing became a big part of me. It used to be my life. So i just miss it badly. I even don't know if i will be able to dance again. when will that happen again? hahaha!

just before getting busy...

2009-01-02T17:03:00.003+08:00

...i have to rant something you know. hahaha it's not like i really have something to say. its just that i want to rant something.. about anything before it can disturb my busy mind after this. hahaha. oh yeah, i will be busy after this. and being busy means NO PLURK, NO MULTIPLY. har har. let me see if that will happen.

btw, i saw someone from my past. uyyy? naahhh! ...CHAOS PAST. *that's a clue. hahaha you know who already if you know my chaos part.* i saw him.... in the picture. HAHA. posted online. more haha. geesh! no big deal. i just saw him, and blah i have to rant it.

this is non-sense i know. hahaha. good bye.
i should check first if there are still things that i need to browse before starting my "work"

- Plurk -- ok!
- Multiply -- *wait lang. hahaha kasalanan to ni nenets eh.* -- ok na siguro.
- BB Downloads -- done!

Good to work.
GOOD BYE!

FANGIRL CONFESSION

2008-12-30T11:10:00.002+08:00

MOMMY SANDEE: sino na ang nasa heaven ngayon?! magkita kita na tayo!! hinahanap narin kayo ni San Pedro!! wahahahaha
IKAY: AKO AKO AKO! hahaha mag fiesta tayo sa heaven!
VANESSA: ako din! San banda kau?

okay, for all you know, fangirl's world stopped last night. because of this fncking GAYO. Yeah. SBS GAYO. Fangirls last night went crazy literally. we all died, came back to life, and died again. hahaha. we drool, we scream. OUT LOUD.

Thanks to TVants, for making it possible for us to watch SBS GAYO.. LIVE! although we got scared becuase of their slow buff process, damn, it's alright, TVants did the right job on time.. (atleast here in Philippines! PAKYU TVants! You rock!!!) haha! atleast they managed to provide us a good quality of that fncking GAYO! haha!

Thanks to SBS, you killed us all fangirls. DREAMBOYS = VACUUM. they are sucking all my energy. hahaha!

..i didn't watch the whole GAYO show because i'm doing something too. haha. i watched DBSK & BIG BANG parts only. (and that includes the MC parts of MY DAEDAE.) hahah meaning almost the WHOLE SHOW. lol! (i did not watch KJK's perf. errr)

btw, of course i watched rain too. RAIN IS FREAKING HOT. what happened to him?? he is getting hotter and hotter. lol. the moment i saw RAIN, i screamed out loud... NON-STOP. i really looked stupid, but who cares anyway?? hahaha!! especially when RAIN ripped out his clothes and took a shower in the middle of the stage. i drool. HOW HOT IS RAIN? hahaha! (after seeing that, we fangirls anticipated that DBSK will rip their clothes too. hahaha! *DROOL!!*)

the DREAMBOYS Battle is super WOW. haha i can't scream harder enough when MY DAEDAE went out. i needed air that time. i can't breathe. hahahaha! But of course, after recollecting my thoughts, i screamed out loud again! That's the feeling of being dead, came back to life, *drool* then died again! hahahaha!!!

JUNSU is so cute. i swear, if not for mommy sandee i will like Junsu too.
But i'm seeing YUNHO. haha!! I think there is something wrong with me, even though i'm seeing YUNHO dancing, i'm seeing him INSIDE THE BATHTUB. hahaha! i was chanting in SBS Chatroom, TAKE IT OFF!! hahaha! and the other non-english speaking fangirls was like YEAH YEAH!! TAKE IT OFF! hahaha!

TAEYANG is obviously HOT, no doubt about that, i always drool for him. (peace Kambal!) That guy is burning. i wanted to splash him with water even though he is just playing the piano and not dancing. hahaha! A total freak.

while preparing myself for total devastation in GD & TOP perf, my bitch LAE is preparing a CHOCOLATE SYRUP for GD already.. haha! i was laughing hard when she texted me that. haha (PAKYU KA LAE!) .. ...VEST IS SO UNCOOL FOR ME. Especially RED VEST. But when i saw GD wearing a VEST, a RED VEST, ... i screamed out loud & fell off my chair. i swear! i was jumping already. (kilig na kilig ampota. kiri na kiri!!) .. then i saw TOP, that freaking ninja. hahaha TOP HYUNG!!! i swear, i'm STUNNED. though the dancing part is super hilarious. hahaha! SO DORK!!!! and BEBE* IS SO HYPER!!! !!! looks like he wanted to come up to the stage too and dance with them. lol. (*bebe is taeyang, bebe because he is still a virgin. till now. lol)

the moment i saw MY DAEDAE gone and not MCing with Ye Jin & Chun Hee, i started to freak out. hahaha! i jumped higher and screamed louder!!! i even plurked, BIG BANG NA. PUTANGINA. hahahaha! i already said all cursed words. bwahhaha then Chun Hee & Ye Jin shouted BIG BANG!!! i was like *DEADS*. hahahahah!!!!! i was typing WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA again and again in SBS Live Chatroom! hahahaha! i'm so dead. hahahaha!

the whole BIG BANG perf killed me. Oh Ah Oh! FNCK! hahah i'm so speechles, i'm so stunned. I WAS DEAD. My eyes on the boys, still dead. Then SEUNG RI performed STRONG BABY. i'm so waiting for this when i saw him danced in GOLD MISS. hahahaha!!!

i came back to life!!! wooohooo!!! Then he started dancing, i was screaming and screaming and screaming haha!! the the girl went out, MAKNAE DANCE WITH HER, with all the butt touching etc. then and there I DIED AGAIN. hahaha Maknae is growing up now. Go for the sexy dance! wooohoo!!

BIG BANG 24/7 PERF. Being dead, i can't say anything, can't do anything, BUT DROOL!!!

blah blah blah.

then i saw MY DAEDAE MCing again, hahaha this time they were saying something that of course i can't understand, but then they shouted DONG BANG SHIN KI. and i was like typing OMO OMO OMO OMO OMO in the SBS Chatroom. hahahaha! JUNSU appeared first, it's like a thunder hitting you in the head. hahahaha! then MICKY. btw, MICKY is so handsome that night. hahahaha. then i saw the rest. PAKING SHET. hahahaha! i was screaming out loud, i think i'm having a brain damage already for air deficiency. hahahahaa!! i really went crazy. lol! i'm waiting for JAEJOONG to appear.... so that i can scream louder. hahaha! they performed WRONG NUMBER then MIROTIC! hahahaha! i'm seeing YUNHO inside the BATHTUB again. hahaha! and when they said UNDER MY SKIN, i screamed harder. hahahaha!!!!!

of course as crazy as i am, WE FANGIRLS ARE ALL WAITING FOR THEM TO RIP THEIR CLOTHES. hahaha!!! the moment i thought they will end the perf, THE MOMENT ARRIVED.

Then the rest is history. I'm in heaven already, SAN PEDRO is waiting for me. hahaha!

Oh, BOA performed, but i can't seem to concentrate on her because I'M UNDR DREAMBOYS SPELL. I'm stunned. I'm dead. I'm in HEAVEN!

I'm a crazy fangirl. I know, no need to say that.

Merry Christmas!!!

2008-12-23T23:00:00.004+08:00

i'm sleepy... really sleepy. if not for the iPod, i will go to bed now... urgh but i wasn't able to charge my iPod earlier as expected because i'm too busy doing the gift wrapping thingy for my bitches. so.. i'm stuck here waiting. charging.

as far as i know, i don't have anything to do now... no deadlines... no design making... no maintenance... none. I'm on leave because i said so. har har har! I'm on leave, grasp that! ha ha ha!

i'm just kidding. i honestly have so many things to do... etc. etc. etc. i can't name them all. or maybe i even forgot already what are those things that i have to do. hahaha! But i don't have "enough" time to "work" because i'm being responsible here at home. WOW. Believe me, i'm being responsible. *geesh!* And when i say "enough" time, it means whole day/s (yes with s) of almost no standing up infront of my workplace. I will eat infront of my laptop (that explains the ants. haha!). And stand up for unavoidable reasons (that's why i said almost. :D)

so that's all.. i just want to update my blog before being responsible again. lol. Tomorrow will definitely be a busy day, *oh gawd, i haven't posted my Christmas Wishlist for this year.* Anyway, i think i should go now and rest since my iPod is fully charged already. yey! perfect timing! Good night folks.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

Nasan ako ngayon?

2008-12-18T13:36:00.004+08:00

hahahahaha! as far as i know, i should be in airport right now. flight schedule is 2:55pm and i'm still here. I should be singapore in a few hours from now! but guess what, I WILL BE STAYING! Freak! paking shet to the max. Its my brother's birthday, i have a Golden Wedding to attend and Christening ng pamangkin ko.. my mom will definitely kill me kung hindi ako sasama. like i said before, it's either my mom will kill me, or my friends will kill me.... KILL ME FRIENDS!!

anyway, few days ago, tinext ako ni Keisi. (well group message.)
"fyi si ____, nasa Uknow thread sa AF."

i was like, PAKING SHET! ano ginagawa niya dun??? paking shet. tapos Location daw niya, "Yunho's Tub" ~~ ay gago nga naman talaga.

tapos may post ata siya na "I dig Changmin next though. It's because he's young, aggressive and full of life!"
~~ ay pota naman talga. ewan ko lang kung ano balak gawin ni Richel dun diba?? ngayon pa na nagkaka-aberya ata sila sa flights nila!

ay nako talga. leche leche. pag ako may narinig na pati ung Big Bang. dadanak na talga ang dugo.

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i'm listening to MBC Korea 89.9 FM right now, naging habit ko na ang makinig sa sa radio station na ito kahit wala akong naiintindihan... walang basagan ng trip. so ayun lang. i'm a bit sad that i won't be able to go to SG now... and i don't have any other time anymore. baka next year na lng ulit. with my Bitches... SoKor? bwahahaha!

That's all.

This is so random.

2008-12-16T11:42:00.004+08:00

haha. first of all, i wasn't able to wake up early... what's new db? i don't feel good actually since sunday... feeling ko magkakasakit ako. pagkagising ko, i saw 43 Unread Messages.. mga paking shet na Bitches, ang aga aga, ang ingay sa text.

Mommy sandee will be back daw today from Poland, hmm. may pasalubong kaya? joke. hahaha. I hope we guys will see each other para ma-finalize na ung plan ng Singapore namin. which is honestly i do not know what to do anymore. hahaha! ~~ it's either my mom will kill me, or my friends will kill me. what to choose? :D hahaha!

Anyway, as far as i could remember before opening Baby Jang, i have so many things to blog, but now i don't know what to say anymore.. hahaha. i think i should finish my Christmas Wishlist na lng. baka may mabuting tao na magbigay pa. hahahaha!

Fast Forward

2008-12-09T12:51:00.003+08:00

i have to go.
hahaha!

Guess who's back... and back again. :)

2008-09-25T23:12:00.005+08:00

hahaha. i guess i will always go back where i really feel "at home" .. hmm.. so ano pa nga ba? andito nnman ako. hahaha. what's new? nakoo. ang dami. i even don't know where to start. san niyo ba gusto ko simulan? friends? school? lovelife? .. hahaha. simulan natin sa sarili ko.

(this is something that i cannot blog in my multiply. i wonder why.. eh wala naman pumipigil.. siguro nga kasi this place.. brings out the real me.. the truly insane me. haha!)

I'm a BUM. Definitely a bum. not yet official.. but im getting there. haha. still waiting for the papers.. gosh. i hate this feeling. ayoko ng ganito.. pero i have no choice. Babangon ako at dudurugin kita ang drama ko ngayon. hahaha. Lahat ng tao sa paligid ko, gulat na gulat sa nangyari sakin... hahaha. at hindi na ako nabigla dun. dahil kahit ako nagulat ako sa sarili ko. hahaha. eh bakit ba? For once, i don't want to be a "selfless" person.. enough for that. let's try being "selfish" .. minsan lang. :) This is it. This is the moment... kahit wrong timing, this is the moment. hahaha! Hindi niyo gets? hehehe.. malalaman niyo din sooner or later. :P magugulat na lng kayo sa mga susunod na post. hahaha.

Buti na lang somehow, im busy helping my tita for the presentations ek-ek para sa convention ek-ek. hehe. ek-ek.. i like it.

about lovelife, im single. and not interest about it...... as of now. :) ano kaya iisipin ng ex-bf ko kapag nabasa niya to? hahaha. ewan ko lang. hahaha. i am single not because im 'heart broken' or something.. no third party involved.. sariling desisyon lang na gusto muna mapag-isa.. i want to do things on my own. selfish, yes.. but that's the way it is. i need this, or else.. it might get worse.

friends, HA! When a door closes, a BIG window opens. I have my FFP People, enough to lose my old colleague. (colleague is the term??) .. ano ba dapat kong sabihin? HA. *hinga malalim* EWAAAAN! tangina na lang nila. Hintay na lng sila. Basta thank you sa FFP People.. i love you most. From Head of the Family down to the Mems, i love you all. :)

School, nabanggit ko na. hindi niyo lang napansin. BWAHAHAHA. ^_^

I guess that's all for now.

PS: Since im back here... i guess i don't need to be careful to my words. hahaha. so... ingat na lang. :P will change back my url to RHICZ.BLOGSPOT.COM .. but not now. tinatamad pa ako mag-lipat. :)

When you just thought you will never see someone again.

2008-04-24T14:35:00.007+08:00

I wrote last April 7, 2008

i was on my way home when i heard my fone ringing... I knew it was mine because of the ringtone "My Boo.." .. and as far as i can remember, nasa right pocket ko yung celfone ko.

Right pocket. Right pocket. Right pocket.

So, i grabbed my "celfone" and immediately remove my earphones and said, "Ni Hao!" (freak. that's the way i answer my fone alang pakeelamanan!).. then a guy (who luckily appear to be somehow appealing to me) said "Ay..." -- i swear, i can see the dot dot dot on his face and i wondered why.

Then and There i realized, it was my Ipod Video that i grabbed from my pocket... at nasabi ko na lang, "Ay sorry, feeling ko kasi iPhone.. feeling lang."

...then Love begins. JOKE! We Laughed lang. anu ba. :)

It was an embarassing moment though. Good thing, we dont know each other. hehehe!

-- Then guess what? i saw that person on the Mall. NO BIG DEAL okay? I guess he is Married. I saw the child!ü

PS: Why cant the Internet Connection be stable even for 10minutes straight! grrr!

One Question...

2008-04-19T00:24:00.004+08:00

Could It Get Any Worse?

Today is a bad day for me. Ano ba. Sabi ko labhan ang mga damit ko. Pero hindi ko sinabi na pakeelaman pati ung mga damit na hindi dapat labhan. Ang nakakainis pa dun, may lakad ako ng 4pm. Bago ang katulong eh mang mang pa. Sabi ko isama ang damit ko sa paglaba. Sinama nga! Pati yung damit na susuutin ko ngayon. Leche. Sabi ng kapatid ko buti na lng nagbago na ako. Kasi hindi ko na tinatarayan. Sinabihan ko na lang.

"Sa susunod, bago kayo pumasok ng kwarto ko, sabihan niyo muna ako ha? Kung tulog ako, MAGHINTAY KAYO. Hindi yung papasok kayo sa kwarto ko. Kung nanay ko nga hindi nakakapasok ng kwarto ko ng basta basta eh!"

Bwiset.

Edi nagsuot ako ng luma kong pantalon. Pinilit ko na lang suutin... No choice eh. Ayos na sana eh. tapos ayun.. I end up having my pants fncking tore apart.. sa pwet na part pa talga! WORST nasa Greenbelt pa ako. HELLO?? Thank you lord at naka Shirt Dress ako. Pero Kahit na.

Bad Trip Lang.

PS: Putangina na aso ng kapitbahay to o. Iyak ng iyak! Lintek sa ingay. Bwiset talga.

Back... AGAIN!

2008-04-15T18:58:00.004+08:00

hehe. why? Just because...ü its been months since i was here.ü and feels good to be back... although making a blogspot layout is really hell, i still love it! hahay... ung Multiply naman ang i-ffeed ko. bwahaha! i wonder if my old friends are still here.. hmm.ü i will do the blog hop thingy later. im tired of Multiply. loool!

Now, let me ask you guys... HOW ARE YOU?ü Its been a while.

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whoa.ü while im doing the blog hop thingy, grabe.. ang dame na nagbago. :) hehe. may mga nagkaron na ng sariling domain, tas may mga lumelevel sa layout. haha. i miss the blog people. tsk.. Hindi naman sa nagdradrama.. pero naisip ko, Do i still fit in this so-called blog world?. pero xempre kaartehan ko lang yan. hahahaha! Naging buhay ko na to. So, being back means dadami nnmn kaaway ko. JOKE. Eh kasi malamang at sa malamang marami nnmn magre2act sa mga posts ko. lalu na amg mga HB. **uyy bagong term!!** :D anyways, i love reading the entries of my fellow bloggers.ü (ay naku, si billycoy, as usual napatawa nnmn nia ako. :D) ayun lang.

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Worth Remembering: TRUE FRIENDS!

2008-04-14T22:20:00.001+08:00

There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.

~ DBMSENIORS 0304 ~

and of course, AUen Girls.ü

No doubt, you guys will always be my most treasured friends.
Ken, Es, Madz, Bev, Lance, Anne, Mariel, Joan, LaLa and the rest of AUen. GOLD TO NOH!?

Damn missin' you guys.ü nabusog ako sa pictures. nainggit na ako ng sobra.ü

Good Morning Blog!

2008-03-27T04:26:00.000+08:00

kamusta naman yun.. yesterday, i woke up around quarter to 4pm. sabi ko kasi Hana Kimi na. ang awkward naman na makita ako ng nanay ko na bumangon ng hapon tapos TV agad inasikaso ko. so nagpanggap ako na kunwari mga 12noon gising na ako at nag-stay lang sa kwarto ko. hehehe. pero actually, 5:30am na kasi ako natulog nun.

tapos ngayon, kumbaga dapat mga 5am or 6am patulog na ako. kaso hindi. hindi pwede. 8am na at wala akong balak na matulog. ililigo ko na lng tong antok ko. tapos pupunta na sa school para magpasa ng !#&(! na resmeth.. bakasyon na pero hindi parin tapos ang school stuffs. pwede ba.

so ayun.. bless me na lng na sana hindi ako makatulog sa byahe. masyado pa naman maaraw. hindi ako nagsu2rvive sa liwanag. pasensya na.

hilig ko ang dilim. joke lng. soo ayun.

*ligo mode*

GOOD MORNING TO ALL!
Kisses to my bitches, and Hugs to my Thugs!
** ka-ek-ekan na natutunan ko buong magdamag. **

Change...

2008-03-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

...is the only thing permanent in this world.

-- haha dami ko sinasabi. ang ibig sabihin ko lang naman, i changed my mind. i have to be back in blogspot. haha. hindi ko alam kung paano ko mame2ntain ang dalwang site.. plus all of my accounts. parang gusto ko nga i-refresh lahat ng account eh. from email, subscriptions, blogs (with s talga!) .. naiinis talga ako!!! urrrrgh! it all startd with Hana Kimi airing in channel 2. leche. nasira mga plano ko. haha. ayun lang. boring.

WORST FEELING.

2008-03-18T18:19:00.000+08:00

"Expecting the world to treat you fairly because you are a good person is a little like expecting the bull not to attack you because you are a vegetarian."

...Ang hirap when you thought that your best was 'best' enough to make a fulfillment.. hindi parin pala.. Although i always believe that life is fair despite the negative things that is happening to me, pero ngayon, feeling ko talga ang unfair unfair. ewan ko why do i feel this way. parang after all the hard times, hindi parin pala! ikaw na nga ang gumawa, ikaw pa ang hindi nakitaan ng effort. ganun na nga siguro ang takbo ng buhay. I never asked anyone for return whenever i give help to them... and i don't have any plans on asking... Ang akin lang, bakit ako ung nakkatanggap ng ganito... when i feel that i dont deserve this. hay.

Effing Message to Someone.

2008-03-18T09:45:00.000+08:00

errrr! Last day of classes, last day of deadlines.

WHILE IM FREAKING OUT ALREADY BECAUSE OF MANY MANY MANY STUFFS THAT I NEED TO FINISH, SOMEONE... SOMEONE OUT THERE... IS PISSING ME OFF!!!!

damn you. i'm just asking if you can call ur friend and ask him for me.. while im doing OUR GROUP work.. and the hell!!!! sasabihin mo ako na lang!?!? bakit? BUSY KA? lintek ka.

It's getting on my nerves already!

2008-03-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

hahay! ang tensyon.. grumagrabe. Last week. Holy Week. Stressful Week!! and worst, it's getting on my nerves!! (plus the people around YM is getting on my nerves narin! hahaha!.. uy tinamaan.ü -- sorry ka.)

haha. ewan ko nga kung naniniwala pa mga magulang ko na may pasok pa ako. Holy Week na kaya. dapat nagdadasal na lang ako eh. Nagdadasal sa pagtulog buong week. Aba! stressed ako eh.. Wala ng aral aral. hahaha! just kidding! anyways, Konting tiis na lang naman... 3 days left, and GOODBYE 4TH YEAR LIFE!!! -- HELLO 5th YEAR LIFE! (plus Back Subjects! -- ayun lang! hahaha!) ROFL!

hopefully (praying to all the saints in heaven..) i have one year left.

ONE YEAR.
KONTING TIIS NA LANG.

-- kaya sa mga kasama ko na nagdurusa sa kamay ng mga prof nila, TIIS LANG.

PATIENCE is a BEERTUE.
Inom na lang after. haha!

One Down. uh.. 1/2 Down?

2008-03-14T19:28:00.000+08:00

geesh i thought my heart was shattered into pieces. hahaha. woke up very very early, at almusal ko iyak. (thank you lord.) my eyes suffered a lot from crying.. blah blah blah tsk. it over though. hayy. Defense at 11:00am.

Sir Mac: Do you feel any pressure right now?

Rica: NO. I dont feel any pressure right now. (hahahahaha)

.. Thank you Lord. although RESMETH Fever is not yet over, at least nabawasan na ang burden ko. revisions revisions revisions. sige lang. wag lng drop th subject. (Kudos to Rob Ruiz (http://robruiz.multiply.com) i owe you a starbucks and a beer! ) pero saka ko na iisipin yan. sa Sunday na lng siguro.

.. I need to focus with my DATA COMMUNICATION now. (Focus pero nagmumultiply!) hala.. sige lang. aral lng ng aral. -- ang problema, paano ang Engineering Management ko. loool.

.. im uber tired. tired to death. pero no choice. 1 week na pagtitiis na lng. whatever happens, God knows that i did my best.. and i believe that He is doing the rest. LOL. (kanino ko nnman nakuha to!?)

.. so ayun. ARAL MODE.

Whew. Finally.. March 2008 na!

2008-02-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

Yeah.. ONE year to go... at March 2009 na! the most awaited. geesh!

Last night, i prayed to God to make things fall into thir right places... Today is the CSC Election, i asked myself and God what will happen next... I told him .."Papa GOD, whatever the outcome is, please make sure that it will be for the betterment of everyone around me.. and of course for me na din." ..

Kapag nanalo, Hagardness ever nnman. though Oo gusto ko manalo.. (duh xempre hindi naman ako tatakbo kung wala lang diba.) ..pero. basta. haha. (uyy may nagdidiwang jan. tuwang tuwa si Nath).. Kapag natalo, sisigaw ako ng FREEDOM!!!! hahaha. may 4 back subjects ako. may thesis pa ako. siguro isa sa mga reasons ni God yun. FOCUS naman daw ako sa pag-aaral ko!!! hahaha!!

MARCH 2008 na.. wooohooo!!! all deadlines will be submitted this week or some next week. Maaga ang mahal na araw ngayon.. kaya maaga rin matatapos ang school year.. so meaning, mas malakas ang pressure kasi mas mabilis ang oras. haha! I can't imagine na sa Monday na ang Mock Defense namin sa RESMETH. whew. kanina nga binibiro pa ako ni Sir Rod.. mukha lang ako kalmado.. pero sa totoo lang kabado ako kapag siya ang Panel namen. waaa!

Hindi ko pa alam ang resulta ng election. Though ang sabi Rowell WON as Pres and Harry WON as VP.. edi Ok. Good Luck. hahaha! Basta ang alam ko, may assignment ako sa ENGMANA na kailangan ipasa bukas.. at hindi ko pa siya nagagawa.. At dahil dun, MATUTULOG NA LANG AKO.

UBER pagod kaya ako!

ANO KA BA!

2008-02-26T12:00:00.000+08:00

Ang suplado ng mga naka-RED polo shirt kanina! ü huwaw!

-- hahahahahaha! laughtrip lang! matutulog muna ako.. gigising ng 9pm to finish my school requirements. tsssk. hectic sched. im lovin' it! then wala nnman tulugan para makasabay ako sa service namin since 7:15am call time namin tom for G.E.(General Engineering) Assembly. Dun naman kme mag ca2mpaign.

7:15am ha!!!
7:15am!!!

---xoxo---

May ililibing nga pala ako ng buhay!
Tignan lang natin kung makapag survive ka pa sa pag-aaral mo.
Masyado ka kasing ASA!

I just don't love you anymore.

2008-02-20T06:32:00.000+08:00

If there is one mistake in my whole life that i can tolerate, it is when i have loved, though i know it wouldn't be appreaciated.

-- but not anymore.. i always thought that the way you came into my life and made me realize all the things that will make my heart beat even if it is torn in pieces... I can do anything.. everything... and i was wrong. Because the way I treat you now is a proof...

I just don't love you anymore.

Good Luck to you and your Girlfriend.

This is the last time. There's no turning back...
For turning back means I am happy... and really moved on.

Seryoso ba ako?

2008-02-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

Anong oras na oh... Naririnig ko na tumilaok ang mga manok... Naamoy ko na ang almusal ng kapitbahay... (mukhang tinapa.. hayy kakagutom.) tsk. Lam niyo ba kung bakit gising pa ako?

HINDI DAHIL NANONOOD AKO NG ASIAN DRAMA.
-- o ha! o ha!

...gising pa ako dahil NAG-AARAL ako sa DATA COMMUNICATIONS.
-- WOW! Seryoso!

...hehe.. basta kapag Data Communications, sobrang seryoso ako. ewan ko ba kung bakit.. hayy. seryoso din naman ako sa iba kong subject (talaga lang ha.) ..pero iba talga itong Data Comms. siguro kasi nahihirapan ako sa subject na to kaya sobrang sineseryoso ko. Aral kung Aral.. tsk. Kakatapos ko lang mag-aral. Ayoko naman na matulog. kasi kapag natulog ako, malamang hindi na ako magigising ng tama sa oras. 830am pa naman exam ko... so ang gagawin ko, MANONOOD na lang ako ng asian drama. hahahahahaha!

btw, 1st Saturday ng Pyro ngayon sa MOA. I'll see you guys there.
Kung sino man sa mga kakilala ko na pupunta, text niyo ko.

Seryoso!?

2008-02-11T16:52:00.001+08:00

wahahahaha! AGAIN?

Sigh SERYOSO -- Tinatamad Ako!!!

2008-01-29T19:56:00.000+08:00

...

..i dont care if you call it baduy or whatsoever. i just love listening to this song right now. (can you hear it ba? its M2M - Pretty Boy.) ..i know its kinda pathetic. hayaan na. wala lang. aside from im going gaga about something right now... plus im going gaga for tomorrow's "exam".. i really dont know how to explain it all. hahaha... Help me God. i'm losing myself. tinatamad ako gawin ang kahit ano. all i want is to stay inside my room... and tell the world that i dont exist. (dude im dead..) tsk. plus the internet connection is currently fncked up. hayyy.. gusto ko ng mocca frap at bacon twist. wala lng. pampalubag loob. can you get me one and deliver it here? hayyyy. ano na ba gagawin ko sa buhay ko? ano na ba dapat kong gawin?
tinatamad ako. tinatamad ako. tinatamad ako. tinatamad ako.

TINATAMAD AKO!!!

kanina, around 12:15noon i texted Kiko(5CoE) and asked him kung nasan na siya. kasi last night "WE" agreed that we will attend our 12:30noon Engdraw class. kelangan ko na rin pumasok dun. xempre. feeling ko, 2 or 3 times pa lang yata ako pumapasok dun. kaso.... inatake ako ng katams. Kiko replied "Malapit na. 5minutes nasa school na ako." sabi ko.. "ah ok. KAGIGISING KO LANG EH. :D" .. sabi niya hindi na daw siya maniniwala sakin... and guess what i told him... "SIGE KIKO PUMASOK KA NA. PILITIN KO HUMABOL. GRADUATING STUDENT KA. KAILANGAN MO PUMASOK. AKO HINDI. MAY CHANCE PA AKO NEXT YEAR." -- tsssk! gawain ba ng matinong estudyante yun?? at talgang sinabi ko na pipilitin ko humabol eh samantalang nakahiga pa ako at hindi pa naliligo nung nagtetext ako sa kanya... take note. talgang tinanggap ko na sa sarili ko na may next year pa naman para ulitin ung subject na yun. peste!! hhhayaayyyyy. ano na ba dapat kong gawin sa buhay ko?

TINATAMAD TALAGA AKO!!!

Alam niyo, everything will be better...
IF PEOPLE CAN APPRECIATE THE THINGS YOU DO FOR THEM.
Diba??? (Oo ka na lng.)

Its more than enough to give me strength to continue the things that i should do. Its more than enough to know that there is people who believe that you are doing good... that you are really living in this chaotic world but surviving... hayyy that would really make me feel be better.

im not in the emo(ewwness) state...
but for now, i am disturbed.

Is it me? or the people around me?

2008-01-28T18:02:00.000+08:00

hayyy i feel lost again. fnck this unstable internet connection.. i've been buffing the same episode for almost 6 hours already. maybe it's not a big deal for you guys... pero para sakin, big deal yun. this is the only thing that makes me alive right now. xenxa na pero kasi i feel like im a ghost now... a soul searching for his goal. (ahh creepy!) wala lng.. i feel so tired right now. eh wla naman akong ginawa buong araw. my travel to school is way longer than the time i stayed inside the classroom. kamusta naman ako nun diba? i dont have interest in doing anything... but to watch watch watch this twdrama. tsk. is it me or the people around me? hahaha.

wala lang... everytime i see that person, i feel like i really dont exist... pleaser na ba talga ako para to make effort and talk to that person and tell na "HELLO!! IM HERE!! I BOUGHT YOU SOMETHING! YOU LIKE IT?" or for example "I'LL GO OUT FOR A WHILE" tapos rereplyan ka, "BAHALA KA." wala lng. Is it bad to live your life for the satisfaction of others? I know that i must live for myself. But special people in my life will always be the reason why i do things.. as i always say, eveything is for them. not for me. hayyy (well.. that's me. for the sake of others. if i thought of myself first before others, that's not me.) ..but then, if u can clearly see that it doesnt matter to them.. your achievements.. you goals.. does it still make sense? don't want to spill so much emotions.. nananawa na rin ako mag lungkot-lungkutan.

ayoko lang kasi ng ganito na nawawalan ako ng gana.
tsk...

ayoko. ayoko. ayoko.

Panapanahon lang... Ngayon ba ang panahon mo?

2008-01-25T21:21:00.000+08:00

As in I'm tired... but seeing the brighter side.

As usual as ever, i woke up (as early as ever!) ..around 11:30am. Enough to fix myself and be late for my CPUARCH class. 11:30am.. duh 12:30 class ko... so meaning, by 11:30 dapat umaalis na ako ng bahay. 1 hour allowance for the travel. kaso hindi e. kakagising ko lang. it took me barely 7minutes i guess for taking a bath... (sige tawa! eww? eh sa nagmamadali e!) then, nagbihis for 15 minutes... (ito naman talga nagpapatagal sa babae eh!) and 10 minutes to eat my BRUNCH. left home around 12:15noon.

Arrived school around 1:15pm... then along the stairs i hear Eli's voice na. Sinalubong niya ako then told me, hindi pala nag-klase si Sir Erik. (how nice!) and Ma'm Ariola is busy because of the fair. (what fair? meron palang event sa school!? i dont know!!! sorry... haven't heard of it. No Promotions? ayyyyyyy! sorry. tamaan guilty.) ..so meaning, i dont have any business in school. except for one fncking thing. RESEARCH METHODS.

So nagpaconsult ako kay Sir Erik... luckily, unti lang ang irerevise ko sa Chapter 1 ko. THANK GOD! (and Thank you Rob. I guess i really owe you a drink. Party na!) so ayun.

School Business has ended. Hello Makati.

4:00pm nasa Glorieta 2 na ako. walked from there going to Starbucks Legazpi...(a looong walk! tas ang init kaya! pero ok lng) eh since today is our 19th Monthsary, I decided to go to his office. I waited for more than an hour (no issues about waiting. pasensyosa ako.) plus i have my bacon twist, venti mocca frap, my ipod. solb na!

Walk again... from Nath's office to Glorieta 4 and arrived at 6:00pm.. Buy tickets for Alvin and the Chipmunks (6:30pm showtime) .. ended around 8:15pm i guess.. and ate at Pizza Hut Bistro.

Went home around 10:00pm.
At home around 10:45pm.
Rest for 10minutes.
Watched the super boring Nuggets Lesson for DATA COMMS.
Revised my Chapter 1 - Research Methods.
Blogging...

And i dont have any plans on doing my ENGMANA Report. Fnck.
I believe in "Bahala na bukas." hahaha!!
ahh ewan!

That's all for today. Pinoy Big Brother - Antipolo Edition bukas. Meaning i will stay at JT's house at Antipolo.. Do our so-called project in Energy Conversion Laboratory. Come back home on Sunday. hayy.

So, as far as i know, many of you are pissed today. (based on the gm i received. and experience i had....) yung iba napaaway na nga sa skul, napa-away pa along makati dahil nagasgasan ang sasakyan. (pero salamat parin sa pagsabay mo sakin papuntang makati Mike..). yung iba sa trycicle..(Hi Jen Sugui..) yung iba sa damit na nadungisan ng bata sa kalye (Kawawang Pen).. yung ice cream na tumapon sa damit (Madungis na Jerome.) tssk!

hayy. panapanahon lang. Some are pissed, but i am not.
Good Night!

Magbago ka na!!!

2008-01-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

- WALA AKONG PAKE KUNG BUMAGSAK KA SA DATA COMMS! O SA KAHIT ANONG SUBJECT.

- BAHALA KA MAGHANAP NG KA-THESIS MO DAHIL HINDI KITA KUKUNIN NA KA-THESISMATE!

- AT HINDI KO GAGAWIN CHAPTER 1 MO!

I though i saw something good in you. Akala ko mag-eeffort ka dahil malapit ka na sa dapat mong abutin. But i guess not... it seems that you still dont know your priorities and that you dont give a Fncking care about your studies. Damn I even care for it more than you do!! Fine!! I know that you never asked me to do it. MY FAULT... that's why I'm making it right now!

I will NEVER do anything for you again.
Hindi na ako mag-eeffort tulungan ka at intindihin ka.
I'VE HAD ENOUGH!

MARK MY WORDS!

-- SORRY. gusto ko man sabihin sa kanya yan ng personal hindi ko rin magagawa!
Dahil as far as you know me.. hindi ko ugali ang mang-bulyaw ng tao. kaya d2 sa blog na lng. kung mabasa mo man, edi good for you. Now you know my side.

** Cross-post to Blogger **

. ü .

2008-01-12T01:48:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 3 YEARS
to my not-so-updated blog!ü

haha!! -- anu ba! now lng naman ako ndi naging updated! ü
busy eh. :) i'll be back.. PROMISE.
First things First e. ü

CHEERS!!

Mahirap maging MISTRESS... lalo na pag PASKO.

2007-12-23T07:49:00.000+08:00

Feeling ko lang naman.

-- hahaha! guilty!

Mistress - A woman who has a continuing sexual relationship with a usually married man who is not her husband and from whom she generally receives material support.

-- ano ba.. define MISTRESS nga. ang layo ah.

Ano ba tong mga posts ko!
para akong tanga!

i know what i did was 'somehow' wrong...

2007-12-22T15:35:00.000+08:00

but does it mean i have to apologize?

i said 'somehow'.

-- i'll tell you the story next time.

I know it but still...

2007-12-19T07:21:00.001+08:00

I hate the way I know everything you say is a lie...

...yet I go through.

-- blog posts are posted originally from my MULTIPLY acct. ngayon lang to... sobrang busy eh. sorry. really sorry!

2007-12-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

I NEED A TOPIC!

gawwwd!.. i need a topic not because i dont have one yet... (i have 3 topics prepared. LOL) but the problem is:

(1) i am not satisfied. ( -- maxadong madali?? walang thrill? parang walang fulfilment na mangyayari... ang arte!)

(2) too complicated. ( -- ayaw ng profs ko.)

(3) i dont have enough time. (gawwwd! kung ano pa ung pinaka gusto kong topic, ayun pa yung mahirap hanapan ng oras kasi i need to analyze every detail of it every second, every minute... and worst, in public place.)

kelangan ko ng career mode dito. *though i know how motivated i am to do this....* pero hindi na kasi practical. hindi lang naman kasi 1 ang subject ko. gggaaaawwwwd. i need a simple topic yet i will be satisfied.

Programmable Birth Control kaya? *suggestion ni Rob Ruiz to. xa sisihin nio.* LOL. -- just kidding. :)

~~~

sorry.. i know na sobrang naging irresponsible blogger ako. uber busy. :) haha! i wish to be back on the track again... someday. when i dont need to worry

BUSY MODE TALAGA E!

2007-12-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

I
NEED
A
TOPIC!

malapit na pala 3rd birthday ng blog ku! haha!

Let's help KCAT hear again.

2007-12-01T00:06:00.001+08:00

http://hearyeah.multiply.com

she is selling t-shirts for P300 pesos only.

guys... please take time to pass by her multiply.
nagagawa natin mag-online shopping, ano ba naman ang dumaan sa site nia at bumili ng shirt diba?
(READ her story HERE.)
or WATCH her video.

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i really cant remember where and when did i saw slash met her... but i know one thing for sure... she needs HELP and i will HELP.

-- na-touch kasi ako sa pgiging positive nia. ang nega ko kasing tao. alam ko sa sarili ko kung gaano ako ka-negative tumingin sa mga bagay. pero LAHAT ng sinasabi niya makes sense. LIFE MUST GO ON. Bigla akong nanliit sa sarili ko dahil feeling ko ang bigat at ang hirap na ng sitwasyon ko... pero hindi pala... there is this someone na nasa ganung sitwasyon, but still very positive ang tingin sa life. I was stunned.

BUY HER SHIRT AND HELP HER HEAR.

Can't Fight This Feeling Anymore...

2007-11-21T10:49:00.003+08:00

Alam mo kung ano ang mahirap sa sitwasyon na ginagalawan ko ngayon? Ayun ay yung hindi ko masabi yung gusto ko sabihin sayo. Nahihirapan ako na kahit anong sama ng loob ko sa tuwing nasasaktan mo ako, WALA parin akong reklamo. Hindi na ako natutuwa sa nangyayari sakin... Nahihirapan at Nasasaktan na ako.

And you know what?
...knowing that YOU exist...
makes everything ALLRIGHT...

Damn it!

Brighter Side :)

2007-11-20T15:19:00.002+08:00

oh, i forgot to tell you. even though i fall so deep...

I CAN MOVE ON!

i will...
i must...

The pain of loving him…

2007-11-15T23:23:00.002+08:00

Just a thought..

I know that you have to go through a lot of different people to find the right one, and even though I know deep down he isn’t the right one because he now has his own life to live, my love for him will live on even when I’m dead.

He doesn’t know the pain I go through when loving him, but yet I continue. I admit that I’m a fool in love, I hate how much I love him, and I can’t stand how much I need him. But I enjoy every second of it.

He never really told me he loved me, and that is where it hurts the most. I never cared to ask for I’m afraid of what the answer may be. But now that I love myself more than anyone it wouldn’t hurt as much as it would in the past.

I do know that he has feelings for me, but how much of feelings, or how strong they are I really don’t know. I do know that he really cares about me and that I am really special to him, and we will always be good pals.

But there are a lot of blank spaces about him that are still a mystery when it comes to do with our relationship.

No one out there can ever take away what I feel for him, or make me think different of what I see when I look into his soul. He is the best, the greatest and I love him forever and more. I do hope that I clearly came across of my feelings for him.

Really do love you. From a heart that is very tender, it sends out things that’s very strong.

Why I love you, you would never really know. You won’t even understand it, for it’s something I feel for you, and not what you feel for me.

Thank you for giving me the space to fall in love with you, even though that wasn’t the intension. Also thank you for being there and not turning your back on me. You are carved right next to my heart, strongly beating with every breath I take.

I just read this article from Fruit Punch Diary ... i dont know kung ganito na ba talga sitwasyon ko or what... pero i still believe na hindi pa naman ganun ka strong yung nararamdaman ko...

so... PWEDE PA PIGILAN. :)

I dont wanna cry no more...

2007-11-09T01:44:00.003+08:00

i might... stop blogging.

because i find no reasons to express what i feel anymore. it doesn't make sense anymore... nailabas ko man yung nararamdaman ko, it really doesn't make sense. nonsense... nonsense... ganun din. ganun parin.

well i MIGHT pa lng naman. dala lng siguro to ng sama ng loob na nararamdaman ko.
dahil lang siguro to sa nakita ko nnman. well... what can i do... sumasawsaw lang ako.

tangina.

When actions speaks louder than words.

2007-10-30T22:42:00.002+08:00

Lately I’ve been telling myself not to talk about it muna... gusto ko muna timbangin ang mga bagay2x sa paligid ko... Maybe because I don’t have the guts to face it pa... Hindi pa ako ready tanggapin kung ano meron at kung ano ang katotohanan. Though I know that the feelings are getting worse, nagpapaka-patay malisya parin ako... and as weeks passes by and realizations came into my mind, unti-unti ko nasasabi sa sarili ko na I can move on... I may be slow… but I know I’m moving… I know that im getting there… And I know that I’m getting closer and closer to the moment wherein I can finally shout the word SUCCESS...

…but not till this afternoon.

I’m super duper close to my decision that I will leave him for my Research Method Class. (Yes, believe it or not, I finally convinced myself to move on and leave him.) Pero kanina, nung nakita ko siya… all I can remember is seeing my self walking towards him and asked, “Samahan kita mag-enroll?” -- … PUCHA! AKALA KO BA OK NA??? Akala ko lang pala yun!!!

I was with him all the while… sinamahan ko siya mag-enroll and everything… hindi ko lubos maisip kung bakit ako andun at kung ano ginagawa ko… eh hindi naman baldado yung mag-eenroll!! Marunong naman mag-basa at mag-sulat yung tao… Hindi niya ako kailangan… BUT I WAS THERE!!! And worse, he’s not telling me to stay, BUT he makes me feel that HE WANTS ME TO STAY IN HIS SIDE! He even told me, “Akin ka ngayon dahil kasama kita!” – Kamusta ka naman boi!

While waiting for lunchbreak, we stayed at his car… we talked. Not about everything… but atleast part of it.

*He held my hand – actually sinasaktan niya ako physically… dahil pinipilay niya kamay kO!!!!*

HIM: Hindi mo na ba ako love?
ME: Hindi na.
HIM: Hindi mo na ba ako love??? YUNG TOTOO. *pasigaw*
ME: *looking outside the window* HINDI NA!!
HIM: Tumingin ka sakin at saka mo sabihin na hindi na!
ME: *still looking outside the window* Hindi na nga!!
HIM: See! Hindi ka makatingin sakin! Takot! *released my hand*

Then he just stared at me while im staring outside the window.

*LAUGHS*

HIM: Nahihirapan ka na ba?
ME: What do you mean? Nahihirapan saan?
HIM: Sa lahat…
ME: Well, generally YES. Depende kasi eh.
HIM: Basta in every aspect.
ME: In some ways, YES. In some ways, NO.
HIM: Mostly?
ME: YES.

*****

I'm happy that we had that kind of talk. not that serious, but atleast we started it. and besides, sinabi ko naman na sa kanya na we really need to talk. by that time handa na ako malaman ang mga dapat kong malaman... At kapag nabigyan linaw na ang lahat ng bagay between sa aming dalawa...

...Then and there I'll have my decisions. and whatever it is, IT WILL BE FOR GOOD.

Just A Thought...

2007-10-15T12:32:00.003+08:00

just when i thought that i have my decisions already, millions of questions popped in my head.. and as they haunt me, my heart is aching... not just because every little detail tells me that we can never be more than friends, but it strikes me to wake up from dreaming this fantasy.

He is someone who I never thought na mag-eexist sa mundo. A man that can only be seen in TV shows that i watch everyday. A man who got everything - Family, Friends, Love and Wealth. Who would have thought time will come and I will meet someone like him... someone who will walk inside my world. I call him The Perfect Man of my dreams. Aminado ako dun. Lahat ng traits na hinahanap ko nasa kanya, kahit yung negative traits nasa kanya. And i know deep inside me, even though i know i learned my lessons already, even though how many times i fool myself and tell that i will no longer fall on someone's trap called foolish love, i know that i will still do things for him... anything... everything... whatever it takes...

But i dont know now, THESIS-Mania na next sem, we need to choose our thesis mates, and he expects that I will be there for him., the problem is, the rest of my "chosen/tentative thesismates" ayaw sa kanya... hindi naman totally ayaw, kabado lang sila na baka hindi siya umattend kapag may thesis meetings... they dont know him the way i know him.. pero hindi ko rin naman sila masisisi... hindi naman nila nakikita yung nakikita ko sa taong to... while they see the negative things about him, all i see is the positive side.

Its a hard decision because it already talks about my future... my last stage of college life. hayyy.

SO HELP ME GOD.

Accepting the Fact.

2007-09-26T11:04:00.002+08:00

I think... I have my decisions already.

i willl tell you soon..

PRESQUE

2007-09-24T11:18:00.003+08:00

Im getting worse. As each day passes by, i cant help but tell myself to fall to his trap na lng. I got two choices. To give in or NOT to give in. Pero aminado ako, whatever choice na piliin ko, alam ko masasaktan ako.

If i give in, I can stand next to him parin... and be fooled by his sweet words and actions. Makakausap at Makakasama ko parin siya. Pero i will suffer the consequences of accepting the fact na nakikisawsaw lang ako.. at nakikihati.. tapos dadating yung time na magsasawa na ako then eventually let go.. **errr??? iniisip ko kung tama pa ba pag-iisip ko.**

Then if i dont give in, No Communications at all. I will see him from a distance na lang. We will be in the same class, same group for the Laboratory experiments and pretend that he never existed. Plus I will suffer din of making myself pretend that im sooo over him.. tapos dadating yung time na magsasawa.. then eventually let go!

ang gulo! Napaisip tuloy ako.. masasaktan na lng din ako, bkt hindi na lang dun sa part na may benefit din ako. diba?? sabi nga nila, kung ginagamit na lang din "daw" ako, bkt hindi ko na rin siya gamitin diba? Kumbaga, satisfaction of this insane feeling for someone who will NEVER love you back.

Super Insanity to. See.. i know that he will NEVER love me back, but still, im playing his game.

Gusto ko naman siya kalimutan na. They say that I need to take it as step-by-step.. of course... The forget thinginess is not that easy... haha kung pede sa isang iglap lang magbago na ang lahat. kaso hindi. Then worst part is Lou Pardini is singing the song WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN.

What might have been if i fight for this feeling.? Is it worthy risking it all for the nth time now that i feel like giving in..

Last Night, i had him in my dreams. I felt again the butterflies in my stomach as i remember the days when i thought i can call him mine. but then again, i know i need to wake up.. and accept the fact that it will never happen...

~~~

The days that i thought i can call him mine.
@ my bed, with my pillow.. hay.

ALMOST mine...

Sampal ng Katotohanan.

2007-09-13T10:54:00.002+08:00

It's painful to fall in love with a person who has somebody else, especially if you've tried everything to ignore the feelings... Worse, if that person made you feel as if you are really someone special, but then you're just special and never will be loved..

-- OUCHNESS.

kung dati, nababasa ko lang ang mga salitang binabanggit sa kanya ng taong mahal niya, ngayon narinig mismo ito ng dalawa kong tenga... kanina, nung narinig ko na nag-ring yung phone niya, hindi ko binigyan pansin. pero since nasa loob kami ng kulob na kwarto at malakas ang kanyang cellphone.. narinig ko kung pano sinabi sa kanya ng taong mahal niya na "Baby!!!"........ parang niyurakan yung puso ko.. SOBRA.. at that moment, gusto ko umiyak.. pero hindi ko nagawa.. Sinubukan ko mag-bingi-bingihan.. sinubukan kong magpaka-busy.. Siguro nagawa kong mag-panggap. pero hindi ko matatanggi na sa loob2x ko, daig pa nito ang retarded na bata na umiiyak...

hanggang ngayon, gustong gusto ko umiyak.. pero hindi ko magawa. dahil siguro kahit sarili ko gusto ko paniwalain na kaya ko to at hindi ako nasasaktan. PARA AKONG TANGA. Sampal na sa mukha ko yung sakit na nararamdaman ko pero nagmamatigas parin ako.

Kanina, binibiro niya ako habang ako nag-iinarte. Kunwari nagtataray at naiirita. Sabay sasabihin niya. "ANG ARTE MO..." .. tapos tatahimik parin ako. Pro nung sinabi niya -- "Bakit ba ang arte mo? May nagawa nnman ba akong mali? Nasaktan ba kita?" .. Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko at sinabi ko ng pabiro -- "Kailan mo ba ako hindi sinaktan?" ... tumawa lang siya dahil inisip niya na nagbibiro ako dahil sa tono ng pananalita ko..

Gusto ko na maglaho. Gusto ko na mawala talaga yung nararamdaman ko... pero paano... bakit ba walang makapag sabi sakin kung paano... =,(

-- I can't make you love me if you DONT.

[edit @ 3:34am]

-- tingin mo ba GINUSTO KO TALGA?

[/edit]

In my dreams - Part 2

2007-09-08T04:12:00.001+08:00

letter for HIM
Click HERE to read PART1!

It's been 7 seven months since i met you and i still cant believe that you really made me fall. I really cant imagine myself going back to the same old me. Hindi ko talaga alam kung ano intention mo... Why tell me that there is "something" between us. Why make me feel that even if im your LAST priority it still sounded so sweet to me. I have everything that i needed in my life already. Masaya nnman ako sa buhay ko... Maayos ang pamilya ko, Masaya ako sa mga kaibigan ko, Ok naman ang school ko. I have someone who loves me faithfully. Pero bakit kailangan mo sumulpot sa buhay ko? Bakit mo sinasabi sakin na "Everything happens for a reason?" Ano gusto mo palabasin? Minsan ko na sinabi na sa panaginip lang talga kita iintindihin at hanggang dun ka lang. But i guess i was wrong. Reality bites and I thought i can just simply deny the feeling at hayaan kung ano man yung nakikita ko. but i CANT. The pain of seeing you both is unbearable already. Akala ko kaya kong i-handle. The pain of reading those sweet messages especially when she utter the words "babe.. my priceless possesion.." kills me. The pain of knowing that you are with her for almost 7 years makes me feel na walang wala ako kung ikukumpara sa kanya.. hayy. When will you stop acting like you need me most while in fact i dont know kung ano ba talga intentions mo... Pero ano pa nga magagawa ko? i've been trying since Day 1, to ignore this feeling. I keep on giving myself enough reasons to hate you... But still.. i am here, the same person you used to know.. that no matter what happens., i'l stay... even if i ran out of reasons already. =,( you will always stay in my dreams........

@ 9:27 am - he texted me

"In life, God doesnt give you the people you want... Instead He gives you the people you need. To teach you, To hurt you, To love you and TO make you exactly the way you should be..."

i still dont get your point. Kailangan ko na ba itanong sayo kung sino ba ako sa buhay mo?
i dont think so... that is the most fearful question to me. and if ever you answer it, baka hindi ko kayanin kung ano man isasagot mo. Positive or Negative.

The BEST teacher i ever had :)

2007-09-03T21:42:00.001+08:00

Do you believe na ang pagiging terror ng isang teacher ay nagdadagdag ng burden sa isang student? i dont know.. may terror kasi ako ng teacher na okay naman. kc sobrang nadisiplina niya kme.. may mga terror naman na nakakaurat talga.. wala ka ng ggwin sa subject niya kundi mag-tanim ng galit.. or let's say it really depends on how the teacher will connect himself to his students. ü. share ko lang sa inyo yung email nung isa kong prof sa amin. On how he connected himself to us and make us realize that even if we freaking hate our subject loads, we must love them...ü

TAKE TIME TO READ.

From: msfstamaria
To: advlogic_0708@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Tuesday, August 21, 2007 9:58:20 PM
Subject: [advlogic_0708] Please take time to read this, this will help. :)

Hi 4CpE,

I suppose you had feelings of mixed emotions when I discussed the specifications of the final project a while ago. Some felt anxious, some felt excitement, and most felt both.

Let me stress some points.

I really would like to see you excel in a project more rather than excel in assignments, quizzes, and examinations. For example, rather than writing a code for a counter in a quiz, isn't it nice if you would implement the actual counter in hardware (mas bongga diba?) To gauge whether you have learned how to design a system in VHDL, I think evaluating an implementation of an actual system is a more effective means than checking written exams.

Except for one topic (state machines, which I will discuss after your midterm exam this coming Thursday), we are almost done with theories. This is the time to use (and hone) those skills. Here's a thought. Now, what I recall more when I was a student were the times we actually designed, developed, and implemented systems (mobot, sea
level meter, automated temperature monitoring and controlling system, compiler, operating system, etc.) I learned a lot from those, and I think it was because we applied what we have learned in actual.

I will be performing two roles in the remaining weeks for our subject. First, I'll be your instructor. Second, and more importantly, I'll be your groupmate. I will be assisting (on the design level) in your project.

Can I ask a favor?

Please don't look at this project as a requirement (of course it is, but don't look at it that way). If that's how you would look at this, this would definitely become a burden. You'll feel like you're dragging yourself to do all the necessary stuff just to pass the subject. You'll feel forced. You'll feel a lot of pressure. You'll not
enjoy.

Here's a mindset I would like you to have:

"Wow thanks! What a great opportunity for learning!" (Well, I can imagine Ameer doing that at the hallway while he's alone :)

If for example out of curiosity you would want to learn how to bake a cake, say, an egg cake. :) How will you study that? Is it enough that you are able to memorize all the ingredients (flour, sugar, fresh egg, salted egg, century egg, etc.) and the steps on how to do it? Or are you going to bake an actual egg cake?

Now is your chance to design and develop systems using VHDL. Now is your time to shine (bongga na naman!). Bring out those engineering skills in you. Bring out those success-producing attitude in you. Bring out the best in you. (parang palmolive search lang ah.)

Take off that "if-i-can't- do-this-i' ll-fail" mentality. Go for the "I-CAN-DO-THIS- BECAUSE-I- AM-ME" way of thinking. (Go Go Go! To the G *clap* *clap*, to the O *clap* *clap*, to the O *clap* *clap*, what have we got? Goo!)

And another note, you will be doing this in groups. Of course, I also consider the chances that some students won't deliver / participate in their group. That would be fine. It's not my loss, and neither is his groupmate's loss. Learning takes place more effectively when it is driven by a strong motivation and desire to learn. Welcome to mature learning.

The next few weeks will be very busy weeks for us guys. I'll be with you in your learning (in high hopes that I would learn a lot too).

Just be diligent in performing your roles (I'll be diligent with mine). Respect deadlines for deliverables. Do what you are supposed to do. Manage your time well. If that is so, I don't think we will be having a lot of major problems. Again, I'll be guiding you.

I'm so excited in accomplishing those projects with you.

With lots of respect and care,
Mac

P.S. If you have difficulties with your other subjects, please feel very free to consult us. (given that we know the topic e.g. basketball, eating, basketball, sleeping)

Charos.

How can something so wrong feels so right all along...

2007-08-24T22:23:00.001+08:00

"..You may be able to bear the pain when love begins to hurt. And when it hurts, you may still be able to give even more. You may be even able to love until it hurts no more. But what good does it bring you when the person you love shows no respect for what you feel and makes lame excuses for his inability to love you back.. Love isn't love until you give away. But love will only have life when it is shared by two people who believe in its meaning, by people who share one goal, one commitment, and by people who are selflessly loyal to each other.

You may find your way to the farthest planet and still remember that someone. Distance has little to do with forgetting. This healing should begin in your heart. Acceptance is the first step to recovery. Once you have learned to understand that this is where it ends then it is the only time when you will learn how to move on with life without having to stop every time you are reminded of the ~~bitterness~~ of the past..."

xxx

i got it from Joe D Mango's article. it hurts me so bad... that i asked myself again how to stop this feeling. Then someone told me... "pano mo iiwasan ang isang nararamdaman kung yung mismong tao hindi mo magawang iwasan." sobrang na-stun ako.. hindi ko alam kung kaya kong tanggapin yung narinig ko. Dahil ba totoo yung sinabi niya? na hindi ko naman talga siya kayang iwasan? Pero alam ko naman talaga na gustong gusto ko siya iwasan e. gustong gusto.....

hindi ko lang magawa. =,(

Masama ako.

2007-08-20T19:36:00.002+08:00

Nath and I went to Calamba yesterday. We planned to go to Alabang Town Center kaso hindi alam ni Nath ung exact way kung pano pumunta since galing kme ng south... pero mabuti na rin ung hindi kme natuloy kasi nalaman ko na andun daw +siya+ the whole day.. So we went to Megamall na lng... and surprisingly Nath bought me a new Ipod Nano. i really cant imagine how much he loves me. how much he trust me. kaya i always have this guilty feeling whenever im reminded of +him+ ... gosh. gusto ko naman na talga mawala tong nararamdaman ko sa kanya. My relationship with Nath is going smooth. i know i love him. and i know that i can be a better girlfriend kung mawawala ung nararamdaman ko with +him+... kung tatanungin mo ko kung ano ung nararamdaman na yun, hindi ko din alam... tsk. sana wala lang.

Gusto ko naman na talaga siya iwasan. Seryoso ako dun. Pero hindi ko alam kung tama yung reasons ko kung bkt ko siya gusto iwasan. Aminado nnman kasi ako na may nararamdaman ako for +him+ despite that i have a boyfriend. *yes, call me UNFAIR.* .Pero panong iwas ang gagawin ko? classmate ko siya sa 5 Major Subjects. Groupmate ko siya sa isang Laboratory Subject. AT kasama ko siya sa OJT. I REALLY WANTED TO STOP THIS. I swear. God knows it. Kaso ang hirap... knowing that i have this feelings.. hay.. alam ko na may mali din ako. kce dapat nung umpisa pa lang iniwasan ko na +siya+ at hindi ko na inentertain ung nararamdaman ko.

Kagabi nga, tinitignan ko yung Friendster account +niya+ at ng gf nia. share account kasi sila. aminado din ako na somehow nasasaktan ako. Inisip ko sa sakit na nararamdaman ko sa tuwing nakikita ko un, sana enough na yung para tigilan ko na tong nararamdaman ko. =,(

hayy...

x: tapos of all people na pwede makita sa Mall, si Joram pa talga nakita ko. kamusta naman un!?

Happy Birthday ...

2007-08-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

I really wanted to greet him HAPPY BIRTHDAY. but i simply can't. I may be unfair kasi binati niya ako nung birthday ko, samantalang ako, hindi ko siya mabati sa birthday niya. well, its a diffrent situation din naman kasi. siguro, para sa kanya, wala naman kaso kung babatiin niya ako. wala lang din naman ako sa kanya. simpleng kaklase niya lang ako.. eh para sakin, mahirap na batiin ko siya.. mahirap dahil alam ko na aside from that 'Happy Birthday' marami pa ako na gustong sabihin. na hindi naman na dapat... and besides, wala rin naman sa kanya kung babatiin ko xa...

tsk. kaya dito ko na lng siya babatiin. kahit alam ko na hindi naman nia to mababasa.

Tama ba na iwasan ko na lng siya?

2007-08-16T16:03:00.002+08:00

urggh. this is a brand new start for my blogging life. okay lang. atleast eto, alam ko na nasasabi ko yung totoo kong nararamdaman.

hayy.. di ko alam kung pano ko sisimulan ung gusto kong sabihin.. hindi ko alam kung ikwe2nto ko ba ung buong pangyayari.. kung pano nangyari ang lahat.. or i will go straight to the point that im in deep pain for liking someone na alam ko naman na mali...

for the second time in my life, i never thought that this feeling really existed.. the feeling of without any reason, u will do anything for this someone. whatever it takes, no matter what the cause, ggwin mo. anything... everything... just because of liking this person.

i texted him - "Let's give it a try na mag-iwasan muna. Gusto ko rin kasi..." gusto kong sabihin sa kanya na gusto ko gawin yung dahil may gusto ko malaman -- kung ANO at SINO ba ako sa buhay nia.

we watch movies together... halos 24/7.. magkasama kme. we talk on the phone till morning.. we text.. nasa amin lahat.. except for two things. ASSURANCE and COMMITMENT.

i dont want to demand it from him. of course! may girlfriend siya. may boyfriend ako. weird thing is alam naman namin pareho na mali ung sitwasyon namin. hindi naman ako tanga. hindi rin siya tanga. they say that this guy is just using me for academic purpose. kapit sa matibay ika nga nila..

lahat ng tao ito ang sinasabi sakin. ni isang beses walang kumampi sa kanya para sabihin na hindi siya yung tipo ng tao na gagawa nun. i dont know kung bakit hindi ko maisip na ginagamit niya lang ako. mali ba ako para hindi makinig sa sinasabi ng iba.. eh ano magagawa ko kung wala naman talga ako nakikita na ganun. sabi nila namamanipulate lng ako ng taong ito.

ewan. malabo pa.. basta ang alam ko, simula bukas, iiwasan ko siya. dati ko na binalak yun. pero alam kong impossible mangyari dahil kapag nasa paligid namin ang isa't-isa, parang kme lang dalawa ang tao.. anino namin ang isa't-isa. hindi naman niya kasi alam na gusto ko siyang iwasan that time.

ngayon alam na niya. ang isang bagay, hindi mangyayari kung hindi ginusto ng dalawang tao. pareho namin gusto iwasan ang isa't-isa muna. siguro nga ganun muna. sa paraan na yun, sana may makuha kme pareho. sana masagot yung mga tanong.

Back for GOOD! :)

2007-08-15T12:29:00.002+08:00

whooo!! its been a month. haha. i miss this. hayy. walang pasok today. Fortunately, kasabay ko sila mommy umalis... at narinig ko sa radio ang announcement na wala na rin pasok ang college. Unfortunately for my other classmates na taga Cainta pa, na-stranded sila along Shaw Blvd. dahil umapaw na ung ilog sa Acacia Lane. nyehehe. naisip ko kung nag commute ako, malamang at sa malamang, nagwawala na ako sa kalsada. hahahaha.

para naman kceng tanga dba.. sinabi na kagabi na malakas ang ulan.. ndi parin sila nag suspend. haha. tapos ayan. nag-suspend sila ng klase, sumisikat na ang araw. hahaha. ang labo. kakaibang bansa talga. haha!

im back for good. yay. kasi kapag hindi ko sinabi na 'for good' maglalaro parin sa utak ko na wala akong responsibilidad para magsulat ng bagong entry. haha.

andito ako sa office ni mami.. may tinatapos lang siya, tapos manonood kme ng A Love Story. weeee! "Gaano mo ko kamahal?" ... Sooobra.

what does it take for a man to take another woman when he already have a perfect one?

shocks. haha. =)

..hectic!!

2007-07-10T21:56:00.001+08:00

SO BUSY. =)

..sabi ko sa inyo e. seryoso na ako sa pag-aaral ko e.
..btw, successful naman ung event na hinandle ko.. kaya im happy.
..plus doing great sa school... (though isa na lng, tumataginting na NGA na ako sa ENGECON *engineering economy*. kamusta naman un kakasimula pa lng ng class.. *busy nga kc ako sa pag-asikaso nung event that time!*) -- next event. FASHION SHOW for th CLUB WEEK. *pero ndi na ako ang hahawak nian. yoko na. papahirapan ko na lng ung mga organizers. lol. since they need our approval. hahaha*
..plus i had my 20th Birthday last JULY 8..
..happy life. happy family. happy friends.

...so no time for foolish feelings. :) dun lang naman gumugulo buhay ko. okei? =)

FOCUS SA STUDIES. =)

x: kaso di pa ako tapos sa ojt ko. YUN LANG!!!

SUPER HELL WEEK!!

2007-06-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

what the heck... hell start of school year 2007 - 2008 to ha... in fairness. sabi nila, sa skul namin pinaka madali daw ng buhay ang 4th yr.. parang hindi ko yata ma-feel yung sinasabi nila.. or preoccupied lang talga ako ng upcoming event.. Freshmen's Night! ..yeah! ako ang Projct Head for the said event... kamusta naman un.. remember plano ko mag-resign? haha!! but unfortunately, hindi ako pinayagan ni Mr. President of Student Council. ayos!!.. being a Student Council for the 3rd time, xempre, galamay ko na ung trabaho ko.. pero never.. as in NEVER pa ako humawak ng any event. super malaking responsibility yun. pero ano pa nga ba.. ginusto ko rin naman. haha. aba.. malaking impact din nito sakin noh. achievement kaya ang tawag dito. anu ba!!!

right now, okay pa naman yung flow ng mga nangyayari for the freshmen's night. sheeesssh. ang laking feedback din nito sakin kapag hindi naging successful ang event. i cant imagine what will happen to me kapag nag-flop tong event na to. waa.

actually someone told me kanina na mukhang kelangan ko yata ng pahinga. yeah.. i really need it. how i wish i have time. 27 units of subject loads, Student Council, Family Problems, Boyfriend (1 year na kme ni Nath!!). ohhhh gawd. i wish ako na si Super Woman. haha. good thing nababalance ko parin lahat. hahaha. plus. i decided to quit DanzTroupe due to personal reasons na rin. hehe. pero ndi pa formal ung pag quit. basta sinabi ko lang. haha. aba. tapos akalain mo, hindi parin ako tapos sa OJT. hehe pano ako matatapos. hindi naman ako pumapasok! hahahahaha!!!

kaya im soo sorry if i cant blog. :)

btw.. im turning TWENTEEN on July 8. omg.

please pray for me. pray for my intentions. specially my problems.. akalain mo un.. pinagsabay sabay ni Papa Jesus lahat sa birthday ko.. saddest birthday ata to.

welcome back students!!!

2007-06-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

woah. haha. hindi ko man lang naenjoy ang aking summer vacation dahil sa pesteng OJT. haha. as of now, nakaka 236/320 hours na ako.. yey!! may progress na ang ojt ko. wahaha. as usual.. katulad ng ginagawa ko before, papakita ko sa inyo schedule ko. lols.

haha.. o diba.. ung nakikita nio na "pending" depende pa kc kung i-aadd ko siya.. mamaya mag adjust ng sched.. hehe. ayang ung nyeta na panira ng "regular" na trademark ng isang estudyante. haha! kaya may naiwan akong subject... Ang Engineering Mechanics. tapos may TRONLA pa ako na naiwan. hayy. at Engineering Drawing 4. hahahaha. incomplete kc ako dun. pasaway ung prof. lols. siya din ung prof ko sa ENGMECH at last but not the least, Strength of Materials na siya din ang prof. waaaa!

anyways, i'll be in school tom. kamusta naman ako diba?? balik pag-aaral. this time, seryoso na talga ako. alam ko maraming beses ko na to sinabi pero this tim sobrang seryoso na ako. 4th yr na ako.. regular parin ako na hindi. (kasi nakuha ko parin lahat ng 4th yr subjects e! ehehe!).. at foundation na ito ng THESIS ko for my 5th yr. hahay.. shet! ang bilis ng oras. parang kahapon lang 1st year pa lng ako,.. nasa orientation., ngayon eto, isa na sa mga nambubully ng mga bagong students. haha!

syempre, going back to school means going back to reality - my responsibility as a Student Council. (for the nth time! sheesh!) i must admit na since nag oojt ako, nagpaka-patay malisya ako sa mga meetings at trainings ng student council. sabi nga nila, masama daw ang loob sakin ng council. sabi ko naman.. "Ok..." .. ndi na ako Legislative Assembly - Secretary ngayon. Speaker Pro Tempore na ako. 2nd highest position sa L.A. (though hindi ko tanggap nung una na ito ang aking posisyon *dapat Speaker*.. kc as far as i know, ako na ang pinaka matagal na nakaupo sa posisyon, plus i know the work already... pero sabi ko mas ok na din, kasi baka hindi ko na rin maasikaso.. tsaka i have my fault din. hindi ako umattend ng meeting.. ano magagawa ko, impt sakin ang OJT.. ok issue to..) .. hayy honestly, i dont know if i want to stay in my position. aminado ako na mahal ko ung work at popularity na nakukuha ko sa posisyon ko... kaso tapos na ako dun e. 2 years na ako sa trabaho.. ang importante sakin ngayon ay ang pagsesryoso sa pag-aaral. ganito na ako ka-seryoso ngayon. baka iwanan ko ang Student Council para sa Studies ko. i've had enough. ok na ako dun. napatunayan ko na sa sarili ko that i can serve the people. that i can be a leader in my own way. (Vote for me just in case magkaron ako ng interest sa politics. lol)

at syempre, ang isa pang responsibilidad.. the Life of being a DANCER.. isa pa to. hindi din ako nagparamdam sa kanila kahit isang beses after the Jig Concert. sobrang naging busy ako. at aaminin ko, nadismaya lng siguro talga ako sa process of payments. hindi ko kc masyadong ma-enjoy dahil sa sitwasyon ko, hindi na ako katulad ng dati na ok lng sakin magbayad dahil napupuntahan ko ung mga practices, dahil ok pa sakin dati ang umabsent sa ibang subjects kapag pagod ako from trainings.. pero last sem, hindi na talga kinaya. dahil kapag pinilit ko, baka umabot ako ng 6years sa course ko. at ayaw ko naman nun.. mas lalo na ngayon.. na sinabi ko na seryoso na talga ako sa pag-aaral ko... hindi ko na pede iwanan ang subjects ko. uulitin ko.. i've had enough. nakasali na ako ng competitions. na-experience ko na ung mapalakpakan at tignan ng maraming tao. ok na ako. napatunayan ko na sa sarili ko at sa mga taong mababa ang tingin sakin na kahit malaki ako, marunong ako sumayaw. at hindi kaya ng lahat yon. :)

..is it goodbye Student Council & DanzTroupe for me?

ganito ako ka-seryoso...
SOBRANG SERYOSO.

YAHOO!!!!!!!!!

2007-05-29T20:22:00.001+08:00

for the record, maaga ako nag-out sa office. madali sumakay ng 'the fort bus'. walang pila ng pasig sa market2x. walang pila sa trycicle. 6:30pm nasa bahay na ako.

soooo cold. lakas ng ulan. :) i remember the days when i usually get emotional in rainy seasons. goodness i dont need to do that now. coz i have Nath, and all i can feel is crave.. its him i crave. LOL. *malamig kaya.. masarap ang may kayakap. :P*

ayun. about my ojt, i'l tel u now, sa Fujitsu (WeServ) ako nag oojt. ISU dept. i forgot what ISU mean. pro more on web developers ung andun. System Analyst(?) & Java Programmers. actually the day i met Sir Peter (when my tito asked me to submit my resume), he asked me kung software ba gusto ko or hardware, my choice - software. though mas sanay kme sa school ng puro hardware. mas trip ko lng talga ang software. nung una na-assign ako sa Fujitsu (WeSolve) sa makati. for 2 1/2 days. eh crowded kme dun because of mindoro people na nag oojt din dun, kaya linipat ako sa WeServ. ano ginagawa ko dun? HTML, Web Designing. Sana nag Multi Media na lng ako diba? haha!! anyways, nageenjoy naman ako. kaya i dont have any objections... for now. :P

hahay.. im so happy na nakapag post din ako sa wakas.

~~~

i have another blog. :) ayoko pa i-broadcast masyado ung url (pero pinost na eh noh?? lol!!). kce nag apply ako for Domain Registration pa. at ayun. i'l tell you kung ano ung bago kong bahay, kapag napasaakin na siya totally. :) yey!

by next week., ung isang blog na gagamit ko. :) though i have my entries already. :)

**exciting part, makakapag blog hop na ako!!! YEHEY!!!*

its good to be back!? talga lng ah.. :P

2007-05-14T22:21:00.003+08:00

i thought i can adapt easily to my busy schedule in a week... haha! asa na lng daw ako..

eto pala ang feeling ng nag-oOJT araw-araw!! gigising ka ng 6am, dapat 8:30am nasa office ka na. mamro2blema sa susuutin... tatapusin ang lahat ng pinapagawa (*swerte na kung meron papagawa.*) tapos uuwi ng 5:30pm.. dadating sa bahay ng 7:00pm, pagod sa biyahe, 9:00pm tulog na. tapos uulitin ko na lng ulit. -- haha.. in fairness i can feel the pressure everytime may papagawa sakin ung boss ko. hehe pero i love my office. super busy talga. (*kahit walang ginagawa! :D*) ..

speaking of busy, xempre, patay din ang online life ko. i seldom check my friendster and my mail acct. then guess what?? may stupid na gumawa ng stupid acct just to insult people.. and nakakatawa pa dun, pinost niya picture ko at ng bf ko.. and tried to insult us. ok lng. the hell we care. :D im busy and got no time for stupid people like them. whoever made that acct will go to hell. karma na lng abot niya.

hayy.. i dunno pa kung when ako makakapag post ulit. hayy ang dami kong kwento.. ang dami na nangyari.. ang dami na rin pagbabago na nangyari sakin. i'll tell u soon. i miss u all.

HIATUS ALert!! + Hosting!

2007-04-26T20:49:00.001+08:00

i swear.. im soooo busy with my OJT. :) nakapasok ako sa malaking company.. so kelangan mag-seryoso. kasi hindi lahat ng college student ay nabibigyan ng ganitong opportunity sa OJT. kelangan ko tong i-karir. :) haha kwento ko na lng sa inyo next time ung mga nangyari.. and how did it happen na dun ako nakapasok! lakas ng backer ko e! wahaha! itago muna natin ang pangalan ng company. baka kce may boss ako na blogger mabasa pa blog ku. hahaha. :P lol. siguro.. i'll be gone for a week. aayusin ko muna yung mga dapat gawin.. tapos.. AJA AJA! :)

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CONFESSION: i want to be.............. hosted.. :D *grin* ! kanino? hindi ko din alam!! hahaha!! :) *calling all domain...LOL :)* la lng feel ko lng. too shy to apply. lol. nu ba yan.. ang panget ng revelation ko. sorry guys.

hihi kapag may umampon sakin, gagawin ko lahat para makapag blog ulit. kahit uber busy ako. ROFL.

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i need a rest!

2007-04-18T23:06:00.002+08:00

o·ver·fa·tigue [oh-ver-fuh-teeg]
–noun

excessive tiredness from which recuperation is difficult.

~~~

.."Bed Rest!" sabi ng doctor.
.."Hindi ho pwede" sabi ni ikay.
.."Bakit hindi?" sabi ng doctor.
.."Rest means Silence" sabi ni ikay.
.."SO??" sabi ng doctor.
.."Silence means thinking about HIM!!!" sabi ni ikay.
.."Dont stress yourself to much iha." sabi ng doctor.
.."Tell that to him. He make me suffer! *evil grin*" sabi ni ikay.
.."Why did you let him make you suffer?" sabi ng doctor.
.."Doc, i didn't. My heart did." sabi ni ikay.
.."O basta good luck sayo iha." sabi ng doctor.
.."sabi ko nga doc." sabi ni ikay.
.."overfatigue mo lang ang magagamot ko." sabi ng doctor.
.."ok po..." sabi ni ikay.
.."please dont forget your medicines." sabi ng doctor.
.."Good Luck Doc!!!" sabi ni ikay.

...kamusta namana ng doctor kong makulit?? ayan.. binabasa niya blog ko. wahaha!
..magpapahinga ako. isang post lng. :P

THANKS sa lahat ng nakidamay. huhu. sobrang na-touch ako.
and THANKS sa mga bumoto.. i know naman na hindi naman nakakainspire ang blog ko dahil puro pangyayari lng naman sa buhay ko to at mga kalokohan ko.. mga kadramahan.. mga ka-ekekan.. pero wala lng. basta. .......... ayun!! *the dots will explain it all!* lol. thanks po talga.

in my dreams...

2007-04-16T01:18:00.001+08:00

Letter for HIM.

you dont know what you've done to me. i never thought that this would happen. i have never thought that i would pass this way again. but thanks... for making my dreams come true kahit sa sandaling panahon lang... for making me realize that someone like you really existed... actually, you brought me so much pain... hindi ko lang masabi at mapakita sayo tuwing nag-uusap at nag-kikita tayo. kuntento na kasi ako sa buhay ko na 'ito' lang ako.. at 'ito' lang ang meron ako. but not till you came and made me realize that i have so much more in my life... that i can have much more than this... nakakatawa nga eh.. you even portrayed a drama infront of me and my closest friend. tanga lang and i really paid attention on you. pero pucha... pirated ka lang pala. gusto kong pagsisihan yung ginawa kong pagtitiwala sayo... pero naisip ko, paano ko gagawin sayo yun? i cant even reject your calls. i cant even blame you for giving me this pain. pero what can i do? you're still the same person that i will see everyday... the same person that will stay only behind my dreams...

hanggang pangarap ka na nga lang talaga...
pero thanks for being part of this so-called dream...

[edit]
@ 10:00am

he texted me..

"u're in skul?"
"la pa... bkt?"
"pupunta ka ba? mis n kta e..."
"maya2x pa. la kce tao d2 sa bahay. ako lang. utot mo."
"utot mo dn bilog!"
"kaw? punta ka ba?
"para makita ka lang.."

pucha.. umagang umaga.. how dare you text me that way. tsk. umagang umaga sinaktan mo ko.

i was trying to let go dude.. sheeessh!
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something or someone...

2007-04-12T00:59:00.002+08:00

hmm.. na-experience nio na ba ung madali kayong mairita sa lahat ng bagay... lam nio un? parang i get bored easily.. with all the stuffs.. parang lahat ng ginagawa ko nagiging routine na lng.. walang bago. nakakasawa.. kapag wala akong lakad, gigising ako sa oras na gusto ko. tatayo sa kama kung kelan ko feel. lalabas ng kwarto kapag kailangan kumain.. babalik ng kwarto, kaharap ang pc. kapag may lakad ako, gigising 2 hours before ng lakad ko. aalis. uuwi ng bandang 9pm. haharap sa pc. matutulog.

ramdam na ramdam ko ung pagka walang kwenta ng buhay ko. sobrang BUM. sobrang petiks!! hehe! ngayon ko lang naramdaman to e.. ung feeling na mukhang i have everything nnman.. ok naman ako sa skul..(except sa P#$^ na tronla2..).. sa work ko... ok naman ung friends ko... ung family ko... ung lovelife ko...? (i mean i have someone to love me..) ..pero still. im searching for something.. ang weird nga eh. parang i want something new in my life...

di ko rin gets e.. kaya pag meron akong silence moments, lagi kong natatanong sa sarli ko., what is that something that im searching for...

or is it really just something... or someone?

whew...

2007-04-09T10:53:00.001+08:00

i dunno if im doing this right... the reason why i changed my url is because i want to hide. o ha. taguan ba ito?.. nde.. honestly, masyado na kceng alam ng mga tao sa totoong buhay ung URL ko. ngayon, bawat post ko binibigyan ng karagdagan na tanong... for example, ung latest post ko, mali nga naman kce na magpost ako ng ganun, kapag nabasa ni Nath (na hindi niya alam na nagbago na ako ng URL), ano iisipin niya diba? na may iba na akong mahal.. though hindi naman ganun ung situation, pero nagiging ganun ung husga sakin. ang nangyayari, hindi ko napopost yung totoo kong nararamdaman or yung pinaka-gusto kong sabihin... kaya naman talga ako nagdecide mag blog eh para mailabas ko yung mga gusto kong sabihin na alam kong walang makakaintindi sakin sa totoong buhay.. pero dito sa blog world, atleast, hindi niyo ko nakikita araw2x para husgahan at tanungin, "ano nanaman yang nasa blog mo!" ..wala lng. tsk. kaya kung maynakaka-alam man ng bago kong bahay, ayun ay yung mga blogger talga at unting unti na lng sa totoong buhay..

tsk.

in pain...

2007-04-04T00:52:00.004+08:00

"Cause I can't make you love me if you don't..
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart
And I'll feel the power but you won't
Cause I can't make you love me if you don't..."

.. i accidentally heard this song and my heart felt like it was torn into pieces. then i remember the days when i usually wake up each morning and realize that i have tears on my eyes... the pain of loving someone so deeply and passionately and yet he dont recognize me. ung paghihirap ng pipilitin mo ang sarili mo na maniwala at sasabihin mo na "ok lng yan.. balang araw... mapapansin ka rin niyan.." ung times na tuwing gabi, hirap ka makatulog kce iniisip mo kung ano ginagawa niya.. kung ano ang iniisip niya... the fact that you care so much for him and yet he doesnt give a damn care about you. the times that you really fight for this feeling to everyone and tell them that they are wrong. those sleepless nights because of waiting for his single text... kahit ung "hi.ü" lng na gusto mong itago sa inbox mo habang buhay. yung pag-aaksaya ng oras na makita siya kahit sandali para lang masabi mo na kumpleto ung araw mo.. yung mga gabi na ilalabas mo yung dear-diary-notebook mo and write all those stuffs.. those memories na ordinary moment lng para sa kanya, pero para sayo special moment mo na yun... yung mga imaginations mo na sana ganito siya.. sana ganyan siya... yung mga wishes mo na iniisip mong matutupad ba talaga.. those fancy dreams na you always hope for.. those happy endings.. yung mga gabi na makikita mo na lng sarili mo na umiiyak... and blame no one for loving someone who cant love you back...

then i realized, bkt ko to pinapaalala sa sarili ko ngayon... why do i have this teary eyes while writing this post? *actually starting to fall and i cant stop it*. then now im telling myself, maybe because i have this feeling right now that i really cant tell to anyone.. something that i really want to take risk but i know i cant afford to hurt the feeling of other people.. something that i want to admit but i know must not. but i know one thing for sure. i miss the days when i can tell to myself that i have this feeling. and i know that deep inside me i'd rather choose to take this feeling than fooling myself or anyone else. but what can i do? i dont want to be selfish. mas iniisip ko parin yung mararamdaman ng ibang tao.. rather than the pain i have right now...

hay.. dont ask me if im ok... coz im not.

OJT.. san nga ba pwede?

2007-03-28T01:11:00.003+08:00

..dang. im so tired and sick right now. nagluto kme last night for our culminating activity sa theo.. walang tulugan hanggang kaninang umaga kce marami ung lulutuin. naging successful naman ung activity.. pero i dont want to talk about it.. maybe im just too tired to talk about school stuffs..

pero dun parin ang punta ng topic ko..

early this morning, habang sinasakay namin ung food sa sasakyan, i saw my Ninong na sa harap lng namin nakatira.

Rica: *nag Mano*
Ninong: O Rica! Kamusta? Graduate na?
Rica: Hindi pa po Tito. *smiled*
Ninong: Bakit? Ano pa kulang mo? Ilang years ka pa?
Rica: 2 Years po... *stopped* hopefully. naghahanap na po ako ng OJT this summer.
Ninong: Meron ka na? San?
Rica: Wala pa po. *todo smile* Pwede po sa inyo? *smile ulit*
Ninong: Pasa ka lng ng biodata mo sa Tita Baby mo. Okay?
Rica: Sige po! Salamat! :D

..sa Globe Telecoms kasi nag-tra2baho si Ninong. Pati yung asawa niya na si Tita Baby. Mataas ang posisyon nila dun kaya madali lang nila ako mapapasok.. pero hindi parn ako decided para dun. haha. and weird. gusto ko na ayaw ko.

..after the culminating activity, i had my lunch at Brothers Burger tas umuwi na.. pero dumaan muna ako ng Mini-Stop. to buy ice cream. ang init init init kasi!.. dapat ung Selecta ang pipiliin ko.. tapos may tumabi sakin na naka light blue polo.

sum1: ma'm, i would suggest this Nestle Double Dutch. Masarap po talga to.
Rica: oh? actually that's my favorite flavor.
sum1: Ma'm i work for Nestle Company and i really assure you that you will feel great with this ice cream. *kapanipaniwala naman kce naka nestle uniform siya and with i.d. :)*
Rica: *sa loob ko, may pera ba yan para gumaan ang feeling ko? kapag kinain ko ba yan papasa na ako sa tronla ko??* ..ah ok. *smiled*
sum1: Ma'm where do you study? UP po ba? *mukha siguro akong matalino kanina. haha*
Rica: Don Bosco Technical College.
sum1: ah talga ma'm edi engineering kayo!
Rica: yup. baket po?
sum1: wala lang ma'm. graduating?
Rica: hinde po. OJT pa lang po ako this summer. *syempre inopen ko ung topic. Company un e! haha!*
sum1: Ma'm if you want i can get your number and tell our HR Department if you want there.
Rica: for real??
sum1: Yes Ma'm pero kung mejo naghe2sitate kayo to give me your number dahil baka feeling niyo niloloko ko lang kayo, you can leave your resume here at mini-stop. give it to Peach, tapos dadaanan ko na lang ulit.
Rica: ahh talga? hehe! salamat po.
sum1: sige po ma'm. enjoy the ice cream.

..feeling ko tuloy may lason ung ice cream. pero nakain ko na kaninang tanghali pa at wala naman nangyari sakin. hahaha.

..san kaya ako mag oOJT?

DOOMED!!!

2007-03-21T00:23:00.003+08:00

OMG. kanina linabas na ung grades namin for TRONLA.. Unfortunately, i need to take my removal exams. putangina naman kce. sana kce na-inform kme that our Final Exams (last Monday) is 30% of our final grade diba?? tae talga. pero atleast.. nabigyan ako ng chance para pumasa sa subject na yun. (..tangina sa lagay na to kelangan ko pa pala magpasalamat sa kanya. ammffffff!!!) .unlike sa iba na hopeless na. punyetang 70% na passing yan. ggggggrrrrrr talga!! bullshit yung grading system ng pu*#^@( prof un.. ggggrrr.

..eto pa.. aminado kme na hirap talaga kme sa Circuits Analysis Subject namin,. talagang nose bleed kme every exam.. kahit bawal ang notes, nagiging open notes.. kung ano sagot ng isa, sagot ng buong class.. obviously, alam ni sir yun... pero hinahayaan niya lang kme. kce kahit naman magkopyahan kme, wala parin pumapasa. (shet diba?) .. so kanina, final examination, 6 set ang linabas niyang exam! kamusta naman un???? 3 lang sa classmate mo ang kapareho mo.. at sino sa kanila? hahanapin mo. wahahaha. napaghandaan ni sir ang araw na to.. kabado tuloy kme sa kanya sa thursday!! haha.. GOOD LUCK!

Engineering Materials (Final Exams) - 4:00pm, Wednesday
Data Structures (Final Exams) - 5:30pm, Wednesday
Data Structures Laboratory (Final Program) - 4:00pm, Friday
Electronics2 (Final Exams) - 5:30pm, Thursday
Electronics2 Laboratory (Removal Exams) - 10:00am, Friday
Logic Circuits (Compilation of Experiments) - 4:00pm, Friday
Circuits Analysis Laboratory (Final Project) - 12:30pm, Saturday
Theology (Paraliturgical Mass) -- 9:00am, Monday

..hayy.. actually, mukhang unti na yan. pero kpag ginagawa na namin.. parang hindi nababawasan ung school loads. amfff.

kaya xenxa na kung hindi pa ako nakakadalaw sa mga blog nio.. next week po. mang-gugulo na ulit ako. hayy.

pray for me ha!!

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btw, i won again. for the 3rd time, Assemblywoman.. (pray for my desired position.. to be the speaker of the house.. hehe!) ...actually, despite the fact na hindi ako nakapag-campaign ever, i cant believe that im third on the list. hahaha. funny lng. kasi sabi nila, may asim parin daw kce ako. haha. :P amf.

Good Luck na lng talga sakin.
Time Management lang yan.
..Kaya no time for foolish feelings. :) **i'll tell you guys next time kung bkt lagi ko tong sinasabi, :)**

whew! hagardness...

2007-03-15T06:50:00.004+08:00

Now Playing: Bukas Na Lang Kita Mamahalin - Lani Misalucha

whoa! its been a week since i had my last post. grrr. im so tired right now. (but happy. dont ask why.) dang! imagine, more than 48 hours na akong gising!! grabe ha... naman. wala kceng awa yung prof namin. hindi marunong umintindi sa nararamdaman ng kanyang estudyante.. huhu. hay naku. 11am ang defense namin sa kanya. tangina.. 6:39am na.. nagso2lder pa lng kme ng circuit namin.. hahay. kamusta namin kme. no comment na lng. we ask for God's guidance na lng. hahaha.:P super hopeless sa project eh noh? :P pero naisip ko, project pa lng to. hahaha. :P

..anyway.. marami akong gustong sabihin.. pero mas gugustuhin ko na lng manahimik. ayoko na magkamali for the nth time sa bagay na to. tama na lng ung ganito.. masaya naman ako.. i dont want to make things complicated. i dont want to ask para wala na lng ako malaman. better na yung wala akong naririnig at nalalaman. :) mas mabuti kce ung tahimik na lng.. hayyyy. but i know na somehow i really wanted to ask "Are you for real?" .. pero mas lamang parin ung learning experience ko na not to make myself believe in such words. hahay.. hehe. unfair kung unfair. pero ewan.. iniisip ko na lng.. "Hindi nnman siguro hahayan ni Papa God na masaktan ulit ako sa muling pagkakataon..." ..hehe. sabay ganun na lng e noh? hehe bahala na lng.

come what may.
sobrang busy na ako sa school. no time for foolish feelings. :) hahaha!
ayoko ng napapagtripan. bwahahaha. :P
oh well.. got no time for this. :) hmmm.. tama ba naman un biglang ganun..
hehe..

aja aja fighting!!

bahala na lng kung papasa ako with our project. aja!

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btw, i decided to run for Legislative Assembly for the 3rd time. hehe. it's my third term if ever makapasok ulit ako sa Top12. heheh. :P .. tsk. honestly, hindi ako nakakapag-campaign. pero wala akong magawa. dahil sa project namin, nasagasaan lahat ng schedule ko. tanginang Telemeter using current-mode transmission yan!.. kaya kung may bosconian man jan. Please VOTE FOR ME! :) Running for Legislative Assembly - Kabatak Party. hehe :P

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OMG. Gumana yung circuit namin. though hindi pa siya nava2lidate.. pero ok lang. at least napagana namin. kahit anong percent error. ok na samin., kaysa naman sa wala. haahaha!

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dirty politician? hehe. lol.

2007-03-08T13:05:00.004+08:00

haha.. i deserve one night of rest. walang kokontra. though i must admit na hindi pa ako tapos sa Circla - Bandpass Circuit ko pero naguunwind na ako. hahaha. tae naman kce.. wish ko lng may tutulong sakin. hahaha! plus i need to pass my 5 reflection papers sa theo. (hindi na kce natuto. hahaha!) hmmm.. then, i wasnt able to attend my Data Structures last night.. mejo pasaway kce ako. hindi ako naka-uniform.. eh dadating ung Department Head.. so nakakahiya naman diba? though oo kilala ako nung dept head, kaya mas dapat akong mahiya. :) baka isipin niya kce ganun2x na lng ako porket kilala niya ako. :)

..buong week ako tuliro. (o ha.. tuliro is the term! bwaha!) ..im confused kung tatakbo pa ba ako for Student Council or what.. plus, confused din ako sobra with the position na pinapatakbuhan sakin. i have this offer na tumakbo as Vice President.. xempre WOW ang reaction ko. haha. nung una kce plano ko talga takbuhan un... pero nung bumibigat na ung responsibilities ko sa Major Subjects ko, naisip ko na baka mahirapan ako.. plus THESIS Proposal na ako next year. Proposal pa lng yan ha.. pero puspusan na agad. (ohh how i wish my thesis was like hmmm.. hahahahahaha! no comment. kung ganun lng edi sna pa-Chill chill na lang ang lyf ko. hahahaha!!!! shet.) ..hayy.. tapos major subjects.. major requirements ..tas Dance Troupe... masyadong mabigat yung responsibility ng Vice President for me.. ehehe.. actually mabigat para sa kahit sinong Engineering Student. mahirap nga naman kce pagsabayin ang Major Subjects sa Extra Activities. hehe. tas ayun... then kanina, i finally decided to run as Legislative Assembly for the 3rd time. eheh. kung hindi manalo, ok lang. chill. pag nanalo, ok lng din. pero nakikita ko na ang hagard days ko. hahaha. :) come what may. its not a big deal anymore to me kung mananalo ako or not. :) (ang big deal sakin kung sino ang mauupo sa Vice President. by all means, ggwin ko wag lng ung isa ang makaupo. bwahahahaha - sama eh noh!? :P -- dirty politician. hahaha!) .. hay.

mas gusto ko na lng mag-focus sa studies ko, sa family and friends ko, at kay Nath. period.

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"..Love is not blind. it sees but it doesnt mind.."

Text ng magbest-friend.
Friend1: ..mabait?
Friend 2: OO!
Friend1: ..masipag?
Friend 2: OO!
Friend1: ..masunurin?
Friend 2: OO!
Friend1: ..mayaman?
Friend 2: OO!
Friend1: ..matalino?
Friend 2: OO!
Friend1: ..gwapo ba?
Friend 2: MABAIT NGA SIYA!!!

..sa pangarap na nga lng ba matatagpuan? hahahaha
..shet. im bad talaga. kahit kelan. tsk.

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Malas lang ba talga??

2007-03-04T05:44:00.001+08:00

WARNING: Explicit words ahead.

..kamusta naman ako.. its 5am.. and i cant slip. pu+#&$(@!!! ang sama sama talga ng loob ko ngayong araw.. este yesterday. sabado. Una, hindi ako nakatulog ng matino. natulog ako ng 1am, gumising ng 4am. tatanga-tanga, nakatulog at 7am na nagising. pota talga... tinapos ang probstat na take home quiz at umaasang magagawa ang 4 na pu#%@^@ na laboratory reports na hindi pa napapasa ng grupo namin na ndi ko malaman kung ako lang ang tao o ano... PU^#%@& talga!! tapos inaasahang makakapagprint sa pu+@#$@% printer ko. pero kamalas-malasan, kahit puno ang ink ko, ayaw nya mag print ng black. congratulations sa kamalasan. Strike ONE!!

..3:00-3:30pm - Bandpass Filter Defense. mga bandang 1:30pm, nasan ako? ayun... nasa faculty. CHILL!! nakahiga pa sa may upuan. pano ba naman.. tan#^@* gustuhin ko man tapusin ung circuit ng grupo namin, pu#^@*@. kasalanan ko din. hindi ako maxadong nakinig.. pero iba parin kce kapag may grupo ka na tutulong eh diba????? pu#^@&@!! pero pinagpilitan ko! syempre!! dapat lng! pu^#$&@ tuwang tuwa ako ng may nabasa sa oscilloscope ung circuit ko. nabunutan ako ng tinik.. gusto ko na ipa check at magdefense. kaso sabi kelangan naka mount sa PC201. edi pu#^@&* magso2lder pa ako. todo solder ako. i have 10minutes left!! aba... akalain mo.. umabot ako sa time!!! pero xempre, chineck ko muna sa oscilloscope ulit ung circuit ko.. pu#^@*@ talaga. Wala na siyang nabasa. lumapit ako kay sir.. sabi ko kung pede next week... sabi niya sige.. pero may bawas na. PU&#&29 hinayupak na circuit yan. Strike TWO!!

..3:30-6:30.. - Logic Circuit Practical Exam.. aba.. CHILL lng ako dito. xempre. hehe. wala akong hinahabol na grade dito. mataas puhunan ko. hehehe.. edi bunutan na ng circuit na gagawin.. aba.. mejo mahirap ang nabunot.. ok lng! sabay nakipagpalit si JT, binigay sakin ang KMAP. ok lng... kmap.. sows. sisiw. xempre ayoko pahirapan sarili ko kaya tinaggap ko na. (palibhasa may libro siya nung nabunot ko kaya madali lng sa kanya.) tatlong Logic Gates lng.. pero naguluhan ako bandang huli.. anong pin ang 5v, ano ang GND. nagtanong ako.. pero hindi rin kme nagkaintindihan. tuwing nagche2ck ako, wala pang 3secs, ang init init na agad ng Logic gates ko. pu#%@& hindi talga magiging tama ung ic ko! pano ba naman.. baliktad ang pagkakadagay sa 5V at GND. Strike THREE!! (pero ok lng. 100 parin grade ko. aba.. dapat lng!)

..ayos naman.. combo combo ang kamalasan sa mga subjects ko. pero i have no one to blame. xempre.. lam ko may pagkukulan din ako.

Moral Lesson: Choose you groupm8s wisely. haha!.. (sorry guys. T_T)

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hindi pa dun natapos ung kamalasan ko for the day. hindi ko lang talga na maisulat ng buo ang detalye.. mejo tuliro pa ang utak ko sa pangyayari. hehe.. kaya nga hindi parin ako tulog! pu#^@*! pero ang babaw lng naman. at tama si Harry.. dapat maging masaya ako.. kce finally, its over. i mean... last night.. when he took his necklace back parang ayun na ung ending ng story. in reality, hindi nga naman sakin.. kaya kelangan talga ibalik. tsk tsk... ganun talga diba.. minsan, kahit alam natin na hindi satin, tinaggap natin.. binigyan ng halaga.. kaya kahit alam natin na dadating yung oras na kelangan ibalik tinaggap natin.. pero aminado tayo sa sarili natin na ang hirap tanggapin, na ung pinundar mo, kelangan mo na rin iwanan... haha.. it will never be the same again.. hindi dahil hindi na pwede.. ggwin ko un kce AYOKO NA!! waaa. i dont want to make the same stupid mistake. hahaha. pero pardon me for being emo tonight and for the week. i need time to move on somehow...

"..wish that i had more of this borrowed time.. If only it would last a lifetime..."

when the feeling is not mutual...

2007-03-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

..woke up around 2pm. i overslept again. OMG. malala na tong sleeping disorder ko. hehe. :)

..kanina, on my way home, i suddenly felt na kamatayan ko na. hahaha. tama ba un!?.. kce naman.. tama bang makipag-karera ung jeep na sinasakyan ko sa 16-wheeler na truck? sus naman.. kahit obvious na mali ung truck, dapat nag-isip na ung driver ng jeep not to compete with the truck diba.. puno pa man din ung jeep.. feeling ko titilapon kme. grabe talga. kung nakalabas lng yung siko mo sa bintana, malamang naipit na un! ganun xa kalapit! xempre, someone freakd out. she said "Ano ka ba! kung gusto mo mapahamak, ikaw na lng! Wag mo idamay yung sakay mo! Hindi mo naman mapapakain yung pamilya ko kapag nawala ka!" .. tama nga naman siya.. pero naisip ko din si manong driver.. may pamilya din siya.. gugustuhin ba niya mangulila ang pamilya niya? xempre hindi.. pero ginawa parin niya ung katarantaduhan niya. ah ewan. hehe.

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i and Nath talked about our relationship. he asked me for the last time. last chance. sana magawa niya.. sana maayos pa kme. Gusto ko rin naman.. kaso kce ayoko lng talaga maging unfair sa tao kung alam ko na hindi na ako masaya diba.. so ayun. hoping for the best. aba.. mahirap yata ipagtiwala ang puso. hahaha. :)

hayy. then last night. someone askd me "kung masarap ba ako maging girlfriend?" .. good thing he elaborated the question. (naku.. dapat lng noh.) he said, bkt daw ganun.. ok nman daw ako.. anything that a guy cud ask for.(sa ugali siguro. hahaha) . pero bakit daw hindi nagla2st ung mga relationship na pinapasukan ko. ayy. hindi siya ang una, ang pangalawa, at ang pangatlo na nagsabi niyan.. for the 4th time! record to. someone asked me the same bullshit question.

ayy bitter parin? JOKE.
(..naku! si JS talga may kasalanan ng lahat ng to e. hahaha! isisi ba daw sa iba!..)

.. i must admit that my past relationships wer destroyed by the fact -- "Hindi naman kce ganun ka-deep ung feelings ko." ..hehe... yes, call me stupid for entering a relationship na alam ko naman na hindi ganun ka-deep ung feelings. i thought that love was a learning proccess for me. i thought possible talga yun. maybe for others but not for me.

ika nga nila.. ako daw ung tipo ng tao na hirap mag move on... oo! ganun ako. kaya naging mahirap sakin ang mag-enter ng relationship noon. pero dumating na din ung point na i really want to try.. *baka sakaling makapag move-on! haha!* ..eh since i had the chance when someone asked me (..kahit daw di ko siya ganun ka-mahal i try ko na. o ha. hahaha!). grab na. so ayun. pero hindi talga..

for me, love should not be meddled with, it should be true.. kaya nung nagkaron ako ng feelings with Nath, i waited for my assurance that he likes me too. pero tatanga-tanga lng.. hindi parin. he fell in love nung naging kme na. hahahaha.. saklap. so i guess that's the reason why im so doomed with relationship. haha!! naman kce. hindi matagpuan ang taong magmamahal sakin sa simula pa lng. hahaha!

pero thankful na rin ako na minahal ako ni Nath. kaya im hoping na sana kahit ganun ung nangyari samin ni nath, maayos kme.

lam niyo bkt? kce i dont know if i cud trust anyone again.. to fall and to love. tsk tsk. hehe. i dont know if my heart is willing to risk the feeling of being hurt again... for the nth time.ü .. kaya un.

**kaya mejo napapaisip parin ako dun sa isa.. este dalawa? at nagiging tatlo. hahaha! ay ewan. haha! tsk tsk**

good night!

is it my fault?

2007-02-24T01:45:00.003+08:00

.. confused.. still confused.
detailed story now.

its been three days since i and Nath broke up.. for real. nagkakalabuan na talga kme for 2weeks already. alam ko na kelangan ko intindihin ung work niya.. nasa laguna siya, nasa pasig ako.. ok lng sana kung nagkakausap kme lagi.. nagkakatxt.. ok naman sana ung relationship namin.. kaso kulang lang talga kme sa time at sa communication. sa field ng trabaho niya, at sa field ng course ko, pareho kme nahihirapan i-balance ang mga bagay2x.. minsan kahit text at tawag pareho naming hindi nagagawa. pareho kme na may pagkukulang sa relationship namin... alam namin na pareho naming binigyan ng effort ang mga pangyayari... pero hindi parin talga enough. while he was hoping na maayos kme, ako.. i tend to look for what is missing.. at naging problema, nakikita ko na sa iba. i want to blame myself for doing such thing. kaso aminado din naman siya na may pagkukulang siya... i didn't mean to hurt his feelings. mag-uusap pa lng kme sa sunday... the day na dapat 8 months na kme.. im not closing the doors yet. i know i still love him.. but i dont know how much...

..now, there's this guy na lagi kong katxt-till-you-drop.. tapos lagi pa kme sabay umuuwi... sabay kumain... yun kce ang weakness ko, yung feeling of security at ung pagiging thoughful ng isang tao. at nakikita ko yun sa kanya.. right from the moment na naisip ko ung possibility na baka magustuhan ko siya, sinabi ko na agad sa sarili ko na never ko i-eentertain ung feelings talga.. never... never... dumating ung time na nagkaron siya ng problem with my other classmate.. at nagsisimula na ako maging concern sa feelings niya at sa situation niya... pero nag-insist ako.. to fight this feeling.. kce magiging unfair para kay Nath. but not till the day na pinaamin ako ng mga ka-tropa niya..nung napansin ng ka-tropa niya na nagiging extra nice na talga ako.. then and there i realize that there is really something in him that makes me happy and satisfied. dilema is, wala siyang idea about this feeling that i have.. hindi naman pumasok sa utak ko ni minsan na "sana maging kme.." ... i really dont know.. tapos sasabayan pa ng panloloko nitong lalaki na to.. kesho nag-aact siya na mahal niya ako.. ganyan gayan.. na hindi nmin malaman kung nang-fifish lng siya or he really mean what he is doing... hay.. the mere fact na concern lng talga ako. but the exact feeling.. i dont know yet.

..then there's this another guy. kumbaga.. itong tao na to, crush lng talga. infatuation. natutuwa ka sa kanya.. sa kilos niya.. sa sense of humor nia. then of course, common issue inside the classroom.. ung asaran blues.. xempre may tendency na mailang sa isa't-isa.. so naging gnun nga.. but since pareho kmeng friendly and really makulit, we bumped on each other and became friends.. the night that i and Nath broke up, he texted me kung ok lang ako.. and he wanted to talk to me.. atleast to comfort me.. that time, i really needed sum1 to talk to. (i dunnot why did it happen na hindi ung isang guy ang nagcomfort sakin.. bkt nga ba? tskk.) .. so we talked on the phone.. hindi ko ineexpect na ma-co2mfort niya ako... then na-realize na lng namin na 7hours na kme nag-uusap sa phone. 12mn-7am! we talkd about anything about everything. the next night, around 2am, nagtxt ulit siya.. at nag-usap kme sa phone.. till 6am. .. weird kce ambilis namin naging close.. then he even told me na ihahatid niya ako last thursday.. na hindi natuloy kce may emergency lakad siya.. then last night, nag YM kme.. and he said..

rhicz_88 (5:12:01 AM): uu nga.... kce naman.. bkt ka ba nagtya2ga kausapin ako.
******** (5:12:13 AM): kashi...
******** (5:16:13 AM): m.u nga tyo db??
******** (5:16:18 AM): dts it!!

*kala ko joke niya lng un!!!*

rhicz_88 (5:16:47 AM): m.u. ? para lang un sa mga taong may mutual understanding about their feelings. do we have it?
******** (5:17:22 AM): maybe...
rhicz_88 (5:17:34 AM): are you making fun of me? lakas ng trip mo ha.
rhicz_88 (5:17:44 AM): sabihin mo lng.. magpapagamit ako sa trip mo. hehe
******** (5:17:51 AM): u care 4 me.. i do also...
rhicz_88 (5:18:03 AM): so..?
******** (5:20:43 AM): u like me????
rhicz_88 (5:20:50 AM): why ask?
******** (5:21:02 AM): answer it..
rhicz_88 (5:21:22 AM): oo.. wala naman dahilan para hindi kita magustuhan diba?
rhicz_88 (5:21:27 AM): kaya nga we're friends..
******** (5:23:32 AM): answer..imw8ng..
rhicz_88 (5:23:39 AM): ano question..?
******** (5:23:55 AM): loko mo ko..alam mo nmn..
rhicz_88 (5:24:03 AM): kung like kita?
******** (5:24:15 AM): uhuh...
rhicz_88 (5:24:23 AM): oo.. like kita. xempre.
******** (5:24:42 AM): ok..i lyk u also..
******** (5:25:56 AM): read between d lines maria..
******** (5:26:58 AM): ure simple and true
******** (5:27:11 AM): i care 4 u..
******** (5:27:25 AM): ders sumthng about u...
rhicz_88 (5:27:32 AM): ok ka lng?
******** (5:27:38 AM): y??
******** (5:27:51 AM): la a masbe?
rhicz_88 (5:27:59 AM): alam mo, kung balak mo ko pagtripan, wag sa ganitong paraan....
******** (5:28:18 AM): i sed imserious..
rhicz_88 (5:28:44 AM): kce .. look.. its been 3 nyts pa lng since nagkausap at nagkakilala tayo ng todo..
rhicz_88 (5:28:54 AM): nu ba un..
******** (5:29:02 AM): yun na nga e..
******** (5:29:09 AM): its weird...
rhicz_88 (5:29:28 AM): hindi e..... hindi talga..
rhicz_88 (5:29:37 AM): parang impossible mangyari naman un...
******** (5:30:05 AM): lets c..

..then kanina, hinatid niya ako pauwi. knowing na may lakad siya at sa ibang lupalop pa siya umuuwi.. weird. kce iniisip ko na baka ginagago lang ako nito or what.. ewan.

..am i torn between two lovers?
..namamangka ba ako sa dalawang ilog for being nice to them?
..masama ba akong tao for leaving Nath kce feeling ko ang unfair kung mag-sstay ako pero ang cold na nung feelings?

..hayy.. im sad.

PERMANENT INSANITY...

2007-02-22T01:31:00.002+08:00

"..its wrong to keep expecting especially if the situation says things arent meant for you. But are you to be blamed when someone just keeps on making you feel things are right?.."

hayy..

..tsk tsk. i dont have the guts to explain it to you guys (for now...) im confused. really confused...

pray for me.

STUDENT VS. TEACHER?.. NO!!

2007-02-18T14:00:00.004+08:00

hindi na yata temporary tong insanity na to.. hahaha.. im freaking out with my school requirements now. ang dami na niya talga.. parang POOF! deadline na bukas. hahaha.. im so doomed. waaaa. plus badturp pa tong blogspot na to.. pano ba naman laging redirect sa migrate to beta. eh sobrang gusto ko na magpost ngayon.. kaya napilitan ako mag beta... kaya kapag itong beta na ito ininis ako, wordpress na ako! bwahahaha. :)

..yesterday, isa sa mga major laboratory subjects namin, we had this experiment na walang makapagpagana... so we're like freaking out na because its been two weeks since pinapagana namin yung circuit pero no hope parin. kaya sinabi na namin sa prof namin.. kaso our prof. (sorry sir kung mababasa mo to.. na alam ko may chances na mabasa mo..) ..is freaking out narin.. na feeling niya we blame him kce hindi namin mapagana yung circuit... dunno.. inaasar lng naman namin siya na baka mali yung Altera na ginagamit niya. (..parang sinabi namin na mali si Einstein kung ganun. hehehe! Altera logic trainer board. hehe..).. napikon ata? ewan!. parang ang dami niya sinabi.. kesho kaya nga daw tinawag na experiment para hanapin yung sagot. WHICH IS TRUE. hindi naman namin sinabi sa kanya yung dilema ng class na walang makapagpagana e para sabihin niya samin yung sagot... ang sa amin kce, sana ituro niya samin yung mga possibilities kung bkt ganun. kung bkt hindi gumana.. bukod sa baka mali kme.. or may mali sa schematic.. or whatsoever!.. kahit hindi na nga ituro e.. khit bigyan na lng kme ng clue.. siguro nga tama siya na hindi kme matututo ng sa teacher lng. matututo din kme sa sarili naming experience. sa sarili naming experiment. PERO with the help of our teachers. kaya nga kme nasa school diba??? para tulungan ng teachers. naman..... so ayun. nabadtrip lng ako sa dmi niyang sinabi at sinumbat. kung ayaw pala niya gawin, sana hindi na lang siya nakinig samin from the start kung isusumbat lng pala niya samin yung mga nagawa niya for us diba..? tsk.

hay basta... kala ko pa naman iba siya sa lahat ng teachers.. yung tipong marunong makaintindi sa student niya.. pero he made me believe that not all teachers can touch someone's life... its about just teaching what we dont know. tsk..

im sorry talga sir. we're totally friends pa naman outside the classroom.. hayy. dibale sa loob lng ng classroom yung sama na loob ko. pero sa labas ng classroom, pede mo parin ako sabihan ng secret mo.. and same with me. but you cant see me in faculty anymore, playing jokes with you.. :( nalungkot tuloy ako. hayy.. Experiment 8. nakatatak na sa utak ko yun. hehe!

Aja aja fighting!

2007-02-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

hahaha.. maya2x ko sinasabi ang "aja aja" na yan!.. know why? because of my damn school loads. hehe. hectic schedule nnman ito. kala ko hectic na yung pagsabayin ang Jig Works.. Jig Training and studies... hindi pa pala.. nabawasan nga.. pero super nag-hapit naman ang school loads ko. grabe. i cant imagine if i can do it pa. shet. pero xempre, hindi naman ako pwede mag-give up. duh. gusto ko na rin matapos agad.. so ginagawa ko ang kaya ko. (iba ang best sa kaya ko. hehehe. :P) .. so ayun. gawa dito, gawa diyan.. pasahan ng gawa dito.. pasahan jan. torture ang ginagawa samin ng profs namin. MGA WALANG AWA NA TEACHER! hahahaha! (sana mabasa nila sir mac. :P) kaya yun.. ah basta.. AJA AJA! hahaha!

..March na ulit.. tapos na ang term ko as Student Council for this year,. kaso... i dunno if im going to run again. im counfused.. for real!! not only with the position na gusto kong takbuhan, but also kung kaya ko pa tumakbo.. knowing na 4th year na ako next school yr.. (..erm.. hindi pa po ako graduationg.. kce 5years aku T_T) .. xempre, major subjects.. plus 70% passing,, patayan talaga. kung ngayon nga na 3rd yr Major subjs ko tas 70% passing din, hirap na ako..what more next year na overload ako plus OJT diba?.. so ayun.. im still thinking.... though i really like that position.. what position? secret muna. :P

..gusto ko talga mag blog hop. kaso im scared that i might not be able to finish my reports kung uunahin ko un. spending my time posting this siguro is enough muna. hopefully by the end of the week, mabawasan na yung load ko.. phew. T_T good luck to me.

btw, HAPPY HEARTS DAY. :)

nakapag-date na ako for valentines... sana kayo din. :P

**ill be back.. SOON!**

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thanks nga pala dun sa mga nag-alala sa hikaw ko.. (previous post!) .. hehe.. i really wanted to thank you personally on your page but i cant do that now. maybe dis weekend. hehehe. salamat talga guys. ok na yung tenga ko. mejo masakit parin, pero sobrang slight na lng.. hindi na siya namumula or namamaga! naiikot ko na yung hikaw ko.. pero nagdudugo parin siya dahil dumidikita yung laman sa hikaw.. so after a week, ttry ko na siya tangal-tangalin.. para masanay na yung tenga ko.. so ayun. labshoo bloggers!.

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HELL WEEK!!!

2007-02-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

oMg. gaawwd. finally im here. at least i have time.. even for a while. im sorry if i cant hop till now. uber busy parin. After the hype of JIG, back to normal life BUT cramming requirements. good thing that i finished my BCD Decoder... aw man that was hard.. and im happy that im still on the top. though i did not get my perfect score last experiment. ouch!! hehehe.

..eto na yung BCD Decoder ku!! yey!. ang ayos ng wiring ko noh? bwahaha. sorry. cramming.

..pero despite of it all.. i did something na i know someone will get angry. huhuhuhu.

i got my ear pierced since i was in Grade6. right ear yan... at ako lang nagbutas niyan.. hehe sakit ako sa ulo ng mga teachers ko nung Elem & HS dahil sa hikaw ko.. hindi kce allowed sa skul namin.. so tinatangal ko during school hours, and put it back kapag uwian na.. tas minsan, nakakalimutan ko tangalin bago pumasok.. so confiscated ang hikaw ko.. pero the next day, may bago nnman akong hikaw.. hanggang sa nagsawa mga teachers ko.. hehe!! i must admit -- VANITY ko ang HIKAW.... kaya i have this inggit factor (slight lang naman.. kce nga ayaw ako payagan!) ..especially when i see someone na may hikaw sa upper ear. kanina.. after eating my lunch, since wala ako sa mood dahil hindi ko napagana ang program ko, napag-tripan ko ang sarili ko.. ang left ear ko.... then.. POOF!

i got myself a new hikaw. yey. :) **o ha.. namumula pa..! :)**

Good Luck to me. i know Nath will kill me. waaaa!

[edit]
..it hurts BIG TIME!.. i have to suffer for 1 or 2 weeks for this unbearable keme. huhuhu. pero ok lng. hindi lang talaga ako makatulog ng mahimbing kce hindi ako makahiga on my left side. shet talga. T_T namamaga parin siya till now.. tinatakot na nga nila ako na hindi daw to gagaling.. magiging Mickey Mouse daw ako sa laki ng tenga. mga exag amf.. hindi naman siya magang-maga! pota.. waaaa. ansakit talga. pero ok lng. bwahaha.!

plus i had my confessions.. grrr.. jt knows it already. as well as rr and Eli. this is crap. kapag lumaki, patay tayo. i'll explain it to you guys on my next post.

plus plus, just because of rejecting this dinner thingy.. ano natanggap ko? "Im done with you.." he said. ..you know hu.. the guy that i've been telling you. tsk tsk. Good for me. atleast i dont have third party anymore. damn him. im saving the friendship.. but damn him talga.

*magkano sa palengke niyan? .ahaha hindi halata. AJA!*
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Super Mega Over Exhausted.

2007-02-01T03:19:00.000+08:00

haha. for real. kakauwi ko lng ng bahay. its been 2 nights since nakita nila ako dito sa bahay. kamusta naman ako.. hayy..

R2R Circuit. im really really doomed by this experiment. as in talaga. hindi ko matanggap yung grade ko. bwahaha. 50% lng nakuha ko. eh ang passing is 70%.. so im thinking, instead of making effort sa pagbili components na super mahal, bibili na lng ako ng dropping form. 5pesos lng. i-drop na ang subject na yan!! bwahahaha!! JOKE!!! SUPER JOKE. Mas gusto ko paghirapan ang mga bagay2x para lng mahabol ko ung grade ko. dang... pano kaya mangyayari yun. bwahaha!!

JIG. ayt.. im busy with the training and stuffs. i really love the music piece na ginagamit namin ngayon. though mixed lng siya with our Skechers Piece, ok lng.. (singing) "..Girl shake that booty.." hahaha.. so imagine the steps. of course, street parin, pero xempre, with the emphasis sa butt namin mga babae. (apat lng kme na babae na sasayaw! out of 18!).. bwahaha! i really love it. haha! this is the moment.

JIG ROCKS 11
Feb 3 2007 , Saturday
Tickets @ 250.00

Inter-School Dance Competition (UST Cfad, UST Nursing, St. Paul Manila, Assumption College, Angelicum College & Mapua Dancecom)

Concert (Parokya ni Edgar & Kamikazee)

Read here for more details.

EPC MASS. ok.. this is memorable. end of story. dont want to entertain what happend. basta sabi na lng ni Harry.. "Rica, bawasan ang ngiti sa Our Father. Masyadong nahahalata.." .. i was like LMAO!! . bwahaha!! phew!

..ok i'll go for HIATUS MODE -- till Saturday!! baka kce hindi na muna ako umuwi sa dami kong ginagawa! hahaha! so ayun..

btw,

Happy 2 years Anniversary to my Blog!!

.actually last January 29 pa. kaso ngayon lng ako nakapag post ulit.. so un. sorry kung mejo hindi ako nakkpag hop and makapag entertain ng link ex. i'll do it on sunday na lng po.. miss you blogosphere.

Suicide ata to..

2007-01-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

phew! imagine.. since monday, wala pa akong matino na tulog. as in.. hindi ko pa nararanasan ang 8 hours of sleep ngayong week! tsaka gustuhin ko man.. hindi talga pwede sa dami ng gagawin!

hayy..

kakauwi ko lng from Philam Theatre. btw, CONGRATS sa MAPUA DANCECOM MAKATI! para sa successful na Dance Concert nila! haha.. it's a funny experience din actually. :) haha first time ko i-perform ung "old school" part ng sayaw naman. so pressured and tensed ako. i did not make it 100%.. pero i know i did my best.. aba!! wala kaya nagturo sakin nung steps! pinanood ko lng sa video. kamusta naman ako nun.. so ayun.. nagperform din ang Miriam CCAT Dancers, ODS Core & Mapua Breakers. so ayun... uber tired na aku! tas bukas.. este mamaya, Overnight naman sa ODS (Orange Dance Studio) sa Kapitolyo..! madugong training for Jig. sows.

hayy..

gusto ko na matapos tong kapaguran na to.. gusto ko mag-unwind. hayy.. san ba maganda mag-unwind??. bwahaha.

...un lng muna. i really want to sleep na. pero hindi ako matutulog. delikado. 8:30am class ko tom.. so titiisin ko antok ko at mano2od na lng ako ng DVD. hayyyy.

kapagod ang life.. pero masaya. :)

dilema: i want to cut my hair again. i want it to be short. errr! but noooooo! amf. i want to fight this feeling! haha.! hindi ako magpapagupit until Graduation!! (meaning, dapat on time ako grumaduate!!)

Kapag binato ka ng bato, Hampasin mo sa ulo!

2007-01-26T00:56:00.000+08:00

dang! nagka-sakit ako for 2days.. ayaw bumaba ng lagnat ko. pero nung nag training ako, bumaba siya. ayos!! what a miracol. haha!! anyways, ive been busy asusual because of school and training. Nath really wanted me to stop dancing. But i told him, i cant. Dancing is my passion. and i really hate it kapag nakikipag deal siya sakin about my dancing. Alam ko na concern lang siya sakin dahil may sakit ako ngayon. but this is really important. we are asked to perform sa Concert ng Mapua Dancecom (Makati). and since isa na ako sa seniors, i really need to participate. and besides, pangarap ko talga to.. ang magperform sa stage. hayy.. nangyari lng na sumabay tong Overfatigue ko. but im so sure na ok na ako ngayon. mejo nahihilo, pero ok na. hayy.. sana maintindihan ni Nath yun. i just love dancing. but i love him.. *Happy 7 months boo..*

~~ Basketball Fans, READ THIS!!! ~~

..last night, oh i mean Wednesday Night, we had our knock down basketball game. gawd.. sobrang tight ng laban. to spoil the story.. we lost. BUT i tell you the story.. in details pare!. supposedly, panalo na kme! as in! kaso BUZZER BEATER! ang sakit tuloy sa puso ng mga players namin! (ayy. concern? haha!) nung 1st half, lamang kme ng 13. pero nahabol. alam niyo kung bakit?? ITANONG NIYO SAKIN!! (Bakkkeet??) kasi naman. sinindak ng kabilang team yung ref. AS IN! swear. kaya kahit super obvious na Foul at kung ano2x pang offense, walang tawag ang ref! nakanampota talga. hanggang sa nag-overtime.. tapos nangyari na ang masaklap na sitwasyon. BUZZER BEATER! dang!

~~~ Ayokong i-post to pero sa ganitong paraan nila gusto e. ~~~

..i told you. i've changed. i dont get mean anymore. but i make sure that i get even. Binabalik ko lang yung paraan na ginamit niyo.

..to daisy, daniel and lira.. since daisy asked me not to name names, gagawin ko. i just want to tell you guys that i have nothing against you na. NO HARD FEELINGS. but if you really insist on messing with me, then wala na akong magagawa. Hahayaan ko kayo. and this will be the last time na may maririnig kayo sakin. so do whatever you want to do. i really dont care.

..dei, i was planning to text you na lng sana about this, but sorry. if your friends wanted this way, sige.

..daniel, if you hope to wake up with no enemies, try talking to yourself and wonder why do you need to wake up and have enemies,. maybe because there are some things that enemies can teach you.

..lira, you talk to much. if you think i have this paranoia na ako yung binabangit ni daniel sa blog niya, asa ka masyado. sino ba ang sumasawsaw? i really dont want to get into pathetic fights with you. that's why i need to tell you dis.. GET OVER YOURSELF! ..pero Congrats na din. atleast you know how to perceive the difference between a bitch and a whore. you choose.

..sorry for being mean. you wanted me to be this way. pero gusto ko parin kayo makita sa Jig. :) sige libre ko na 2 tickets. :). walang halong kaplastican. Trabaho lang. Promotions Committee e. hehehe!!

..txt niyo ko if you want to talk.

~~~

ciao guys. :)

hagardness nnman!

2007-01-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

..hmm i wasnt able to attend my Theo class again. waaa! i really need to pray na tatangapin pa niya ako sa class nia. bwahaha! :) *duh!* so ayun.. im really exhausted though.. why? by doing my r2r circuit!!! hayy! grabe! tapos ambabait pa ng groupmates ko.! though its not my fault na hindi rin nila balak tumulong kce hindi rin naman daw nila alam un.. .waa! i was like.. "uhhhh try niyo kaya mag help? huhu!!" ..so utusan ko na lng sila. hehe! "..pakihanap ung specs sheet ng Op-Amp.." "..pakihiram ung cutter.." "..paki tignan nga ung connection nito kung tama.." "pakit gupit ako ng wire.." ..haha!! ..un na lng subject ko for the day.. usually pumupunta sila rocky sa bahay.. pero i think nagawa na nila ung Logic Trainer Board nila, kaya hindi na sila nagpatulong.. and besides, hindi rin ako pede kce we have pur training for Jig @ the studio.

..7pm ang call time namin sa Kapitolyo. (dun kce kme nagttrain! sa Orange Studio.. pagpasok mo, matatanaw mo na ung Orange Building. There. :)!! ) .. so i decided to leave school at least an hour before. kaso xempre, hinintay ko sila rax, april @ duane. around 6:30 na kme nakaalis. kaya mejo ramdam ko na magpu2sh-ups na talga kme..

..here's the deal, every 5minutes late of each person is equivalent to 10 push-ups!! .. eh ayoko mag push up.. so talagang nagmamadali kme.. kaso...... 8 kme na nalate ng 5 minutes.. so 10*8 = 80 push ups!! .. tapos kulang pa kme ng dalawa.. so.. at the end, we had our 160 push ups.........dapat!. hahaha! naawa samin si tatay kaya halo2x. crunches, sit ups, push ups & i forgot kung ano tawag dun! (ung sa So Close.. ung ginagawa nung little sister nung bata sila kapag nagkakamali siya.. ung hopping while holding the ears. hehe!) .. so yun.. ramdam ko na bukas, manga2tog ang braso ko sa sakit!

..after training, since hindi pa kme nagdidinner.. yinaya ko si April at Duane na kumain sa KFC ung papuntang Oranbo.. magsasara na KFC that time.. pero may natitira pang customer so hindi pa sila nakapag-sarado!! edi yun pumasok na rin kme!.. kwentuhan to the max kme! i never had the chance to make kwentuhan with April & Duane. kce lower batch ko sila.. and whenever may training kme, we talk about dance steps and gaguhan. pero nothing about life and love. hahaha! :) dme ko tuloy nalaman.. hmmm!

..then nung naramdaman namin na pilit na kme pinapaalis sa KFC, we decided to go home na xempre.. pina-una ko na ung dalawang bata. though magkasama naman sila at ako ang maiiwan, dapat ako ang una nilang pasakayin. (Mandaluyong sila, Pasig ako.) ..pero pinauna ko parin sila. baka kce mamaya, ano mangyari sa dalawang bata na yun responsibilidad ko pa. :) tsaka mas matanda naman ako, so ako dapat ang tumitingin sa kanila. :) so ayun..

..sumakay ng taxi (dahil masikip ang mga jeep na dumadaan. kakatakot kaya.. biglang pang may tumabi sakin! eh madilim pa naman sa KFC! tapos dme ko pa dala!) .. humiga sa kama, hinintay makagamit ng DSL, at nag blog.

..speaking of dala.. may dala akong tool box kce kanina.. Pink Tool Box! o ha ang kikay! haha! sabi nila ano daw sineservice ko.. Manicure o Pedicure.. sabi ko Embalsa. :) (..special treatment for Monkeys! hehe!) ..haha seriously speaking.. ang dme ko kceng dala na circuit din.! PLUS, i have two bags.. ung isa mga damit ko. hehe tas ung isa, yung dala ko talga lagi. kaya nagtaxi na rin aku.. :P

..after this, Dolphin Bay Mode nnman.!

X : while everyone is busy watching Princess Hours, ako kakatapos ko lang panoorin ang Full House DVD na hiniram ko kay RR! tapos.. Dolphin Bay naman na hindi pa tapos mag-download!. bwahhaha!

Get over yourself..

2007-01-21T17:10:00.000+08:00

in·se·cu·ri·ty [in-si-kyoor-i-tee]

1.	lack of confidence or assurance; self-doubt: He is plagued by insecurity.

2.	the quality or state of being insecure; instability: the insecurity of her financial position.

3.	something insecure: the many insecurities of life.

..x..x..x..x..

Dear Monkeys feat. Star,

..let me just warn you.. malakas ang kutob ko na ikaw ay isa sa mga monkeys. pero ito na lng sasabihin ko sa inyo., GET OVER YOURSELF!

(haha.. i hate conceited people.. pero magpa2ka-conceited mode ako ngayon.. sandali lng.) look what you guys did on my friendster! ahahaha! and what do u expect sa magiging reaction ko? tell the world that im super proud of myself?.. ok ka lng? Hindi tayo pareho ng ugali. Please keep that in mind. i am Mean, but boast? Not ME..( u really dont know me huh.) i dont have what it takes to boast.. and if ever i do have what it takes, i dont have any plans to boast what i have. :) marami pa akong pagkukulang sa sarili ko kce kaya ganun.. and i can deal with that. kayo kasi hindi.. feeling niyo kce superior kayo sa lahat ng bagay. so please lng.. tantanan niyo ako okei?

..btw star, if you want to mess more with my blog, GO! :) im giving you the right to tell me any bad thoughts na you think i have. :) tsaka,, how did u know that im fat??? ..hahaha! do u think im stupid to ask you that question?? hahahaha! BOOM. Gotcha.. wag ka na magtago.. :P ingat ka na lng dear sa mga pinagsasasabi mo. :) Wala kce nakakaalam sa blog na mataba ako e. :) not unless we know each other personally already dahil sa blog (which i believe isang tao pa lng un.. hi lin!), or you knew who i was right from the start!! Nakaaway na ba kita??? Parang hindi pa kce e noh? hahaha!!! Katulad nga ng sabi sa kanta, MAKE IT REAL. :) wag kce sumawsaw. :) ok? WAG GANUN.. bad un! haha! i dont have anything against you na nga e. *evil grin* -joke :) ..kayo naman talga. hahaha!! (o diba? alam na alam ko kung sino dapat matamaan.! ilag na lng ~~kayo~~. ~~este ikaw~~. ay ~~kayo~~. ikaw.. pero make sure na we will see each other soon parin ha? hahahahaha!!! )

"..Insecurity and self-consciousness are the bi-products of fear. Eliminate the fear and you eliminate all three."

..memetyt blog world. :)

X: blogger friends na nasa link ko at ililink ko pa lng, wak kau gagaya sa kanya ha? loves ko kce kayo sobra.. hehe. e xa hinde, kce nang-aaway. huhu. indi marunong rumespeto ng kapwa blogger. nag blog na nga lng siya para masundan ako e.. JOKE! bwahahaha! :)

ang pikon.. TALO. :)

may kwento ako sa inyo..

2007-01-18T22:17:00.000+08:00

Kwento #1 : MIDTERMS CANCELLED!

..ahahaha! kamusta namin kami nun? part time teacher from PLM (Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila) kce ung prof namin sa Circuits Analysis 2 at sa Electronics 2. prof din siya ng mga magbBoard Exams na ECE. so imagine kung gano siya kahirap magbigay ng exams samin. kaya sobrang ginhawa yung naramdaman namin nung nalaman namin na na-move ang midterms sa dalawang pinaka madugong subject namin. knowing na lahat kme hindi nakapag aral sa Electronics2 dahil sa pesteng 20 items na assignment na yan!. sana nga hindi na lang aku pumasok kce sa kanya lang ang pasok namin today. aksaya sa pamasahe tuloy.. dibale kung tatawid lang ako, nasa skul na aku e..! hehe kaso hinde.

ang hirap kaya ng anlayo ng bahay mo sa skul mo. hehe! lalu na kapag may nakalimutan ka. parusa un. :) hehe! pero naging masaya naman yung pagpasok ko sa skul.. kht nasayang yung pamasahe ko. :)

Kwento # 2 : Muntik na Magsapakan!

kanina, akala ko magsasapakan ung dalawa kong kaklase. magkabarkada kce sila.. (used to be?).. eh dahil sa babae.. ayun. nagkandaloko-loko ung samahan nila. actually, buong barkada against dun sa guy na nang-agaw (..na tawagin natin sa pangalan na Mr. Aviator..) actually hindi naman daw inagaw sabi ni Mr. Aviator sakin. (close kce kme!) sabi niya, friends lng daw sila. kaso xempre, nagalit tong may balak manligaw. so ayun.. and then it follows. usual away ng barkada sa babae.

..eh itong si Mr Aviator, hiniram yung print out copy na pinagawa sakin ni _ _ _ _. (o ayan may clue na!).. eh lahat kme cramming na sa pag-gawa nung assignment.. so hinahanap ni _ _ _ _ yung copy. Ngayon, bumalik na si Mr. Aviator dala ung xerox copies, wala yung original copy. Nasaan ang original copy? Pinahiram ni Mr. Aviator sa iba. so nagalit itong si _ _ _ _. Nasa library kme, pero sumigaw ba naman siya ng "..Ano ba yan! Alam mo naman na kelangan ko na yun eh! Kaya ka nawawalan ng kaibigan e!.." ..kaya lahat kme uber shocked. sabay sagot ni Mr. Aviator, "..gago ka ha!..".. kala ko sapakan na.. hindi pa pala. sayang. hindi pa ako nakakakita ng ganun. JOKE! so ayun..

Kwento # 3 : Asaran Blues!

..bukod dun, pasaway din kce tong mga kaklase ko.. may inaasar sila sakin na classmate ko.. eh.. magkatxt kme last night.. sabi ko pakopya ako ng mga sagot na meron siya.. tapos siya din papakopyahin ko.. tapos kanina nung tinext ko siya kung asan na siya, sabi niya, "..papunta na po ako ate. magpapark lang ako.." ..eh nabasa nung isa kong classmate.. so xempre, wala naman kaso sakin yun.. (FOR REAL! pramis!) .. kaso nung nasa library na kme, tama bang i-reserve yung pwesto sa tabi ko para dun siya paupuin... nahiya naman tuloy ako.. kce gwapo siya. pero NO BIG DEAL. pramis. so ayun.. (no deal.. no deal..! hehe!!)

..x..x..x..x..x..

..madami pa ako kwento e.. pero mas gusto ko mag blog hop. so bukas ko na lng itutuloy. hehe!

..btw, nakasabay ko yung HS friend ko, pero bukas ko na din kwe2nto. :) hehe!

Pahabol na Kwento : The Guy.

about the guy na sinasabi ko sa inyo.. wala. tinext ko na siya. sabi ko..

..kung ano man yang galit mo, wag mo na idamay si pydzh. gusto niya lang na magbati tayo. pero sa nakikita ko, mukhang malabo na talaga. kaya kung pede lang, wag mo idamay si pydzh! wala naman xang ginagawang masama. he wanted us to be ok lng. pero tama na. sobra na. ayokong ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko sa friendship na inakala nating meron dapat. pero wag na lng! nagkakasakitan lang tayo at may nadadamay pa.. kaya kung wala kang pake, mas lalong wala akong pake. u know from the start na wala akong pake. kce kung meron, edi sana naghintay ako. kaya ndi mo na kelangan ipamukha sakin na wala kang pake ok? tama na din [insert name here]. ndi na rin tama to. basta wag mo idamay si pj! kung galit ka, sakin ka magalit. wala naman epekto sakin yang galit mo dahil wala akong pakeelam sau! tapos.

..aba at nagreply ba naman.. sabi...

"..ok..ang dami mong sinabi. i aint mad at you and with pydzh! ok lang kayong dalawa sakin. tapos."

..ang gago.. amfufu!

..x..x..x..x..x..

[edit] Monkeys are making alibis. Mga Murit talga. MMM = Mga Murit na Monkeys. Kain kayo bananas. Baka makatulong sa nauubos na utak. aba.. nakakaubos kaya ng utak ang insecurities sa katawan.. kala niyo.. hahaha! tamman sapul nnman. Meron din feeling jan. bwahaha. basta wala sa Links ko ung mga Monkey. otei? natuwa naman aku sa comment ni kuya iskoo at irish.. :) basta wala sa links ko. ayan ha.. paki-solve na lng ulit ung probability. :) pero kain ka muna bananas. anu be!! [/edit]

Midterms Madness

2007-01-18T00:47:00.000+08:00

..just got home from training. buti na lang at hindi kami pina-run ni Kuya Dex ng piyesa.. though nag complete conditioning kme. as usual.. natanggal ang mga kalawang sa katawan ko. :)

..wala akong masabi ryt now, kce ang tumatakbo lang sa utak ko ay kung paano ko sasagutan ung 20 items na binigay samin sa Circuits Analysis na kelangan ipasa bukas.. pero at the same time, Midterms namin bukas.

..madugong pag-aaral to.

..bawal mang-istorbo ang mga monkeys. :)

*pero mag hhop aku ng unti.. slight lng. hehe!*

i smell trouble.

2007-01-17T13:40:00.000+08:00

uh oh..

Trouble # 1 (Minor): School + Training.

since may paparating na new event sa school, xempre, kelangan paghanadaan.. since Midterm Madness nanaman, tapos sasabayan ng Training ko for the DB Danz Troupe. Good Luck sa pag-aaral! Waa!

Trouble # 2 (Minor) : Low Life Monkeys.

..ayaw aku tantanan.. duh. oo na.. kayo na ang maganda. :) otei? kamukha niyo na si king kong. lalu na ung isa. si ano.. si "_ _ _ _ s". bwahahahah! ayan ha! may clue.. para alam niyo na yung probability na ikaw yan.. ay teka. kayanin kaya ng utak niya yun? bwahahahahahahah! haha! i know i am MEAN. sorry. i can't please everyone. if you hate me then go! :) sino ba naiinis? sino ba napipikon. :) wala naman akong ginagawa na masama. well if you think im doing something wrong.. then tell me. :) hindi ung dami mo sinasabi. :) ..hanggang jan lang naman kasi kayo.. :) hahaha! i love the way you hate me Low Life MONKEYS,. :) ..

Trouble # 3 (Major!) BIG Trouble: Someone.

okay.. remember the guy that i've been telling you.? yung intriga sa post ko before..? ung 5th yr ECE studs kce samin nasa Field Trip ngayon sa Laoag. (like nung before kila Nath! bwahaha! :P) tas ayun.. nagtxt sakin si pj.

PJ : rica beybe! (talagang may beybe kapag si pj and jen ang nagttxt sakin!)
ME : Yep?ü
PJ : Tawag ka naman. Kelangan kita makausap.
ME : Sige, hanap ka ng may SUN jan.
PJ : /*Nag send ng business card*/
ME : /*Tumawag na ako. Pero ang hirap kumontak*/ Pj, ang hirap tumawag!
PJ : please tumawag ka. make it or break it to.

..and nagulat ako kung sino sumagot. siya. ung guy na sinasabi ko sa inyo.. pj told me that the guy wants to talk to me. For what reason? I really dont know! ganito kce yun.. rinereject ko ung mga txts niya.. ayaw din kce ni Nath. alam niyo naman kce diba ang dahilan? (if not, read HERE..)

.. so ayun. nagkasakitan.. kung ano2x sinasabi.. now there is something na parang he wanted me to prove him.. kaso hndi pede.. at wala akong balak.

uber happy na ako sa life ko ngayon. i have everything na i wished for. (ok not everything. pero ung pinaka most, nasakin na!). at hindi ko un ipagpapalit sa kahit ano. i love Nath sobra. more than anyone else. and to think we have this deep relationship na, mas dapat siguro na hindi ko ipagpalit si Nath. i'll stay with Nath. promise yun.

..ang akin lang, i dont want to hurt his feelings.. pero sa ugali niya na hindi marunong makinig at ang alam niya ay siya ang tama at laging kinakawawa.. mahihirapan ako sabihin sa kanya ang side ko...

or maybe, hahayaan ko na lng talga siya, kahit maglupasay siya..

kakaloka! katulad nga ng sabi ni pj, "..anu ba yan! sampalin kita! abot hanggang laoag ang hair mo!.." ..

seriously, ayoko lng talga manakit ng tao. kahit sinong tao.. (Monkeys lang ang sinasaktan ko.)

..hmf! g2g! late na aku sa skul!

puyat nanaman..

2007-01-16T01:49:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, nasa MOA ako.. together with my friends, family and Nath. Compare sa last week, mas madaming tao nun... and of course, expect the worst. mas traffic!! andun kme around the mall for 2hours. damn. naawa nga ako kay Nath kce straight from work sa Laguna, dumeretcho siya ng MOA. at linakad niya simula Buendia hanggang MOA! ..around 4am na kme nakadating ng house. sabi nila mami, d2 sa house na daw mag-stay si Nath.. so dito siya nag sleep then umuwi na siya ng around 9:30am. naawa talga ako sa kanya..! pero uber na-appreciate ko ung ginawa niya. hayy.

..supposedly, im planning to have my Blog Leave. pero as usual.. hindi ko kaya tiisin ang hindi mag blog. :) no matter how busy i am, blog parin! hehe! and besides, in 13days ice2lebrate ko na ang 2years ko dito sa blog. :)

..x..x..x..

..kanina, pasahan ng r2r circuit. of all groups, kme pa ung naubusan ng regulated power supply. so badtrip kme. syempre, instead na matapos namin siya ng mabilis, wala. naghintay kme may matapos.. ang masaklap pa nun, hindi gumana ung circuit namin! tama naman ung pag-buo ko ng circuit. kahit nga si Sir hindi maisip kung ano ang mali! amfufu.

..after class, pumunta sila JT, Rocky, Tim @ Arjay dito sa house. tinulungan namin sila gawin ung Project Fabrication nila.. Logic Trainer Board. mejo kakauwi lang nila.. kaya hagard nnaman ako. pero otei lng. :) hehehehehehehehehehehe. ayy. end of topic. ssssssh! wa!

memorable tong scenario talga na to..

ME : /inopen ko ung blog ni *toooooooot*/
ME : Honestly, tell me... sexy ba siya?
*sum1* : Sino? May sexy ba jan?
ME : /..itinuro../ yan oh...
*sum1* : Rica from the heart to pare. Hindi. Wag mo ikumpara sarili mo sa truck.
ME : / ..ngiti maiigi... umiral ang pagiging bad,. haha!!! /

**at the same time, i felt bad.. tama bang tawagin niya akong pare? huhu.. torn apart. JOKE!**

FYI: hindi sa nagiging MEAN ako ha.. sabi ku naman kc sa inyo from d start wak niyo ko bigyan ng dahilan para awayin kau.. kce may hangganan ang aking pasensya. :) .. My brother taught me one thing.. i dont need to be MEAN. i just need to get EVEN with you. Sorry Monkeys.. Haterz like you can leave my blog now.. ciao!

**mga pampams kau. hehe!**

maagang pasok nnaman bukas. T_T nanayt!
miss hopping.. errr!

err. busy mode.

2007-01-14T20:27:00.000+08:00

Be Right Back.

[edit] ayan po.. sana maayos na ung kinalabasan ng layout ku. sana ala na sira. :) study mode. ^_^ ganyan talga life. aral aral aral .. [/edit]

churva. keme. bakla.

2007-01-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

BABALA: Medyo bastos.

Otoko - Lalake
Kyomod - Yung linalabas ng lalake.

..marami na akong na-encounter na bakla. iba iba talaga.

..bakla na ayaw magpatawag na bakla.
..bakla na gustong ituring siyang babae.
..bakla na garapal ang ugali.
..bakla na daig pa ang babae kumilos.
..bakla na dugyot.
..bakla na matalino.
..bakla na bobo.
..bakla na plastic ang ugali.
..bakla na bundat.
..bakla na mahilig makipag-away.
..bakla na sooobrang maarte.
..bakla na akala mo kagandahan.
..bakla na masungit.
..bakla na mukhang nanga2in ng tao.
..bakla na nagtatago parin sa kanyang katauhan.

i have nothing against with them. Infact, some of my closest friends are gay. I find them trustworthy naman and easy to deal with. mas fun nga sila kasama minsan.. than girl friends.

pero kanina i had this conversation with a friend of my friend.

Nung nasa HS daw sila.. demure daw ang mga bakla.

Scenario #1:
May otoko na nagpakita ng kanyang ari.
Ginawa ng mga bakla? Hindi sila nagsumbong. Itinago na lng nila ito sa kanilang sarili at sabay kagat sa labi.

Scenario#2:
Habang P.E. swimming at sabay sabay naliligo ang mga otoko.
Ginawa ng mga bakla? Nagtatago sa isang poste habang sinisilipan ang lalaki.

..pero may kinwento din siyang another version. ang present situation.

Ngayon daw ang HS na bakla ay garapal.

Scenario#1:
Habang nasa classroom at nagtuturo ang teacher, linabas ni lalake ang kanyang ari.
Ginawa ng bakla? Hinawakan ito at inaano habang nagkla2se. (alam niyo na un.)

sabi nung friend ng friend ko.. "..ay nako. habang nakatirik ang mata ng lalake, mas tirik na tirik ang mata nung bakla!"

Scenario#2:
P.E. Swimming. Habang nasa pool ang mga otoko.
Ginawa ng mga bakla? Kinuha ang mga brief at itinago.

Scenario#3:
Otoko na namamahid ng kyomod.
Ginawa ng mga bakla? Pinunasan at hinabol yung nagpahid. Kapag hindi naabutan, magsusumbong sa teacher. at kunwaring na-rape siya.

sabi nung friend ng friend ko.. "ay nako. kung kme yun, thankful na lang kami at tatahimik."

hala??. nakakaloko. Halos lahat naman ng friends ko na bakla ay matitino. actually, some of them are highly respected pa nga. buti naman at puro ganun ang mga nami-meet ko na bakla.

pero one time, may na-meet akong gago na bakla. Siniraan niya ako. Naiinggit kasi sakin.. kaya gumawa ng kwento at magsabi ng kung ano2x. autistic ang turing sa kanya ng lahat.. pero dahil sa hindi ko kinaya yung pagiging autistic niya at naiirita na ako sa paninira niya sakin, ayun.. nag file ako ng case sa kanya sa school.. hiningian ko siya ng Public Apology. pero naawa din ako sa kanya, kaya hinayaan ko na lang. kaya ayun. Palaboy ang turing sa kanya ng marami.

..wala lng tong post na to. naisipan ko lang to. kaya dont take it negatively. :) otei? again.. i have nothing against them except for those gagong bakla. :)

share nio experience nio sa mga gays.. . :)

as if nakatulog ako..

2007-01-07T02:19:00.000+08:00

ang ganda diba? around 11:30pm, pinipilit ko ma-contact si Nath eventhough uber sakit na ng uLo ko. 12:00mn na, ayaw parin. hanggang sa nakatulog ako. around 2am, nagising nnman ako. at naalala ko na tinatawagan ko pala si nath. (nagtampo nnman kce sakin. details later.) so sinubukan ko ulit tawagan. wala. useless. asa pa sa SUN. wala kce akong load sa globe. tas nakatulog uLit ako. around 4:30am, nagising ulit ako at sinubukan tawagan si nath. hopeless as ever. at hindi na ako nakatulog. hinintay ko mag 6:30am at bumangon na ako sa kama para mag-ayos.

hindi ako na-late. ang galing! PRBSTAT. pero kung kelan first time ko na hindi mallate, tsaka naman hindi nagklase si Sir Mac! (ayos!!) nagbigay lang siya ng announcements. (ayos talga!! hehe!) edi laki ng bakante namin.. hanggang sumunod na klase. CIRCLA2. Pinakilala na samin ang aming bagong Prof. si Sir Pascual. Kahit nasa TOP 3 sia ng ECE Board Exams, hindi ko parin ipagpapalit si Sir Llorente. Kahit halos isumpa ko na si Sir sa kabibigay nya samin ng nonsense works and redundant compilations. mas gusto ko parin siya. (sir mac, kung nababasa mo man to, pabasa mo kay Sir Llorente. baka sakaling ibigay sakin ung Toblerone sa table niya. :P) .. LOGIC LAB. may pinagawa samin si Sir Jordan na talagang nagpasakit ng ulo ko. soooobra. from logic design and implementation in input supply.. gusto ko na sana saksakan si Sir Jordan ng 220V na power supply. buti na lng at prof ko siya at ginagalang ko siya. (wag ka sanaman magalit kung nababasa mo to.)

"..kung hindi kaya paganahin ang circuit, daanin sa diskarte.." - rica & arjay

pagkatapos nito, pumunta na kme (Arjay, Rowell, Doms, Ate Ochie, GehGeh, JT, Rocky, RR) sa MOA para manood ng pyro olympics. pero andun din sila mami at tita. muntik pa kami maligaw kce ang laking JOKE nitong si Buen. ang gago kce. basta. nakakaloko. ginugulo niya yung nag ddrive. (si RR!) .. tas ayun. 6:00pm nasa MOA na kme. dami ng tao! soobra. kahit parking mejo nahirapan kme. edi yun.. ikot, kain. peste sa dami ng tao. kala nga nila rocky may stampede daw. hehe. tas ayun. maganda ung pwesto namin kce may ticket sila mami. pero instead of going inside the tent, dun kme sa may malapit. mas maganda naman ung view and veeerrry nice talga. Spain & USA ngayon. Next Saturday, no2ood uLit kme. :)

kami, nakauwi naman. kahit kakarating lang namin. pero minalas sila RR, JT, Rocky at Arjay. Nung papunta pa lang kasi kme, unti na lng talga gas namin. pero hindi parin kme nagpagas. hehe. ngayon, nung pag-uwi nila, sa sooooooooobrang traffic, naubusan sila ng gas. ayun,. buti na lang at kila mami ako sumabay umuwi. kundi, minalas din ako. habang gumagawa ako ng post ngayon, sila pauwi pa lang. (wawa naman Rocky. siya nagddrive e. bwahaha!)

ang sarap magpakasaya. kalimutan na lang ang R2R circuit at reflection paper sa THEO na kelangan ipasa sa Monday. pramis. malupit na pramis,. papasok na ako ng theo. :)

GOOD NIGHT.!

headache.

2007-01-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

dang. 48 centuries bago mag-load ang blogspot. nu ba un... T_T dahil parin ito sa earthquake na naganap kailan lang.. sakit talga ng ulo ko.. as in. pero pinipilit ko mag post.

kanina.. naglalakad ako.. tulala akong nag-iisip tungkol sa offer na binigay skn. sa sobrang pag-iisip kung ano at pano ang dapat gawin.. i accidentally bumped into the post. ewan ko kung may nakakita pero la akong pake.

errr.. hindi talaga ako makapag post ng matino. bukas na lng. hehe.

9:00am pasok ko bukas. Good Luck nnman sa pag-gising!

frustrated.

2007-01-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. absent na ako for 2 days. hindi dahil sa tinatamad ako or what. may inasikaso kce ako. i got a "job offer" .. part-time lng daw. the company will adjust for my sched. so in short, ako masusunod sa time as long as ma-meet ko ung requirements.. despite the very nice (and big.. take note. big.) amount offered, baka hindi ko to tanggapin.. Binigyan nila ako ng deadline till monday kung kukunin ko ung offer. Kaya ko naman i-meet requirements pero ang iniisip ko kce if i can take another responsibility. duh... Student Council. Dance Troupe. School. Boyfriend. ..i think i cant handle "work" right now. malaking risk yun. i go to school 6days a week. oo bakante ang morning ko kapag Wednesday - Friday.. pero... ewan. kaya hindi ko lam gagawin ko. i want to get that job (and that salary offer - enough to buy an iPod Video 60GB for a month. imagine??). knowing na part-time lang un..... pero.. responsibilities. i toLd Nath about this.. and he said.. "Pano kapag ayaw ko? itutuloy mo parin ba?" ..hay. di ko tuloy lam ggwin. T_T

help. kung ikaw nasa posisyon ko.. anong gagawin mo?

Year End Post (Late.)

2007-01-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

..phew! dang! finally!! sobrang down ng server ng DSL dahil sa earthquake.., kahit blogspot hindi ma-open. amfufu. late na tuloy ang aking Year End post. :)

..hmm mejo malungkot yung New Year naming Family ngayon. Wala kasi si Kuya Mark. Nasa Batangas parin .. sa Jan4 pa siya makakauwi dahil sa work niya. Then si Kuya Vin, dun sa family ni Ate Juna (wife) nag-celebrate ng New Year since nung Pasko, samin sila nag celebrate. Akala namin, si Kuya Jay, hindi din makakauwi dahil sa work. buti na lang nakagawa siya ng paraan para maka-uwi.. kce kung nde, apat lng kme magce2labrate. pero kahit wala ung dalawa kong kuya, inenjoy parin namin ung New Year. :) mas maingay.. mas magulo kme ngayon. :) mas maraming paputok.

.. hehe.. ung fountain na sinindihan ni Daddi sa harap ng bahay namin. :) si Daddy yung nakatayo sa gate. :)

.. intrimidita ako at kinunan ko ang aking sarili habang nakasindi ang fountain. :) sa tapat ng house. :)

..err.. i know naman na you know how much i adore the Beauty of the Sky. :) nung New Year's Eve, sobrang linaw ng sky. as in.!! sobrang ganda ng moon. kinunan ko ng picture. :)

.. uhm.. one of the best moment -- year 2006 :)

so.. (in random order.. hehe! )

.. sa mga FRIENDS ko.. (mga friends ko na walang interest sa blogging pero sinusuportahan ako at ang blog ko, salamat!)

.. sa CYBER FRIENDS ko.. (mga ka-YM ko jan at mIRC peeps. :P, salamat sa patuloy niyong pakikipag-usap sakin kahit sobrang gabi na. hehe!)

.. sa mga MONKEYS.. (na stalkers.. na gumawa pa talaga ng blogspot account para sundan ako.. para laging masubaybayan ang blog ko, inaasam na may mabasa na bagong post.. .. at mga umaasang magugulo nila buhay ko.., Salamat parin! dahil hindi ko inakala na ganito niyo ko tra2tuhin.. :) Magbago na kayo! hehehe! )

.. sa PROFs ko.. (Sir Mac.. Sir Jordie.. :) , Salamat sa friendship at sana ipasa niyo ko ngayong Sem! hehe!)

.. sa CLASSMATES ko.. (na mga walang pakundangan na hindi ako tinuturing na babae. hehehe! pero salamat parin dahil suportado nio blog ko..)

.. sa ka-DANZ TROUPE ko.. (na hindi naman nila to nababasa. hehe!, salamat din dahil naging part kayo ng isa sa mga pangarap ko. :) hahaha! )

.. sa Don Bosco COLLEGE STUDENT COUNCIL.. (na si Jen lang yata ang nagbabasa ng blog ko.. hehe!, salamat dahil kahit nawala ako panandalian, tinaggap nio parin ako nung bumalik ako.)

.. sa mga ka-INUMAN ko.. (na laging handa kapag nagkayayaan mag-inuman.. hehe!, salamat! sobra!! inom lang ng inom. hehe!)

.. sa mga TROPA ko.. (mga laging anjan even if they saw the worst part of me.. yung nagbibigay ng pag-asa pag alam ko na walang wala na ako.. sobrang salamat! wala na akong mahihiling pa sa inyo.)

.. sa FAMILY ko.. (na nagbabasa din ng blog ko kapag pinilit ko silang basahin.., salamat sa pag-unawa sakin.. pramis ko magiging mabait na ako.. sana!)

.. kay BOO.. (na naging dahilan kung bakit masayang masaya ako.. kung bakit ang feeling ko ay Super Complete na ako.. kung bakit super In Love ako.. makikipagpatayan ako para sa taong to. hehe!, SUPER SALAMAT. i love you more than anyone else. :) .. hehe! )

..at syempre..

.. sa mga BLOGGERS .. SALAMAT! kundi dahil sa inyo, wala akong babasahin na posts. :) lagi kayong anjan para makiramay sa mga post ko na minsan hindi ko kayang ilabas at sa Online World ko lang nalalabas. Salamat Salamat Salamat. Sooobra.

...

Good Bye 2006.
Hello 2007

from Bulacan

2006-12-31T01:22:00.000+08:00

Aalis kce kmeng family papunta Bulacan, sa house ni Tita Cora, na-meet na ni Nath un before.. March2006 - birthday ni Kuya Vin. inask ko lng siya pumunta pero hindi pa kme ni Nath nun. ang alam ko, hindi siya pupunta kce may exams daw siya,, pero nagulat na lng ako nung sabi ni Daddy, nasa baba daw siya. tapos nung inask siya ni Tita na mag-mano sa kanya, nag-mano naman si loko. tama ba un? haha! so natuwa sa kanya sila Tita, kaya ininvite siya ngayon na isama ko daw sa Bulacan since kami na daw..

December 25, 2006
Tita Cora : Sino na boyfriend mo ngayon?
Ako : Si Nath.
Tita Cora : Sinong Nath? Yung nagmano sakin at sa Tito Dhoy mo?
Ako : Opo.
Tita Cora : Ah. naging kayo na? Tagal niyo na ha!
Ako : Oo nga e.. 6months na. hehe! pero feels like years na kme together.
BOTH : LOL

..Last night, wala kaming napag-usapan ni Nath na definite time kung what time ang alis. ...BASTA MAAGA!!...' lang ang sinabi ko sa kanya.. eh late na ako nakatulog.. around 2:00am yata.. (nakatulugan ko na nga ung ka-txt ko na si lin. hehe! sori sis. :P) ..pinilit ko na wag makatulog dahil baka hindi nnman ako magising ng maaga, pero tinawag ako ng Spongebob at nakatulog.

joke time namin ni Ate Bagcee (around 1:00pm)
Ate Bagcee : oi rica! bumangon ka na nga! tanghali na!
Ako : Oo sige........
Ate Bagcee : papalitan ko yang bed sheet mo (si spongebob) kapag hindi ka pa bumangon!
Ako : *Umupo sa Kama* ...........
Ate Bagcee : bangon na!
Ako : bumabangon naman ako e.. kaso si Spongebob, tinatawag ako e.... *Nahiga at natulog ulit*
Ate Bagcee : G*g* pala yan si Spongebob e. Lagi kang pinapatulog.
Ako : *lol*

nung kina umagahan, may kumakalabit sakin. akala ko kung sino... si NATH pala! napasigaw talaga ako.. sabi ko. 'LABAS!!!!!!!!' nagulat siya at napalabas nga.. tapos bumangon na ako. at nagpunta ng CR. paglabas ko, sabi ko, 'Boo, sorry... nabigla ako. nakita mo naman kce, naka mini-micro shorts ako tas half sando lng.. gulo2x ang buhok. hindi pa nagmumumog..' .. tapos siya, tawa lng ng tawa. tae. at least nakita na niya ang worst kong itsura and he still love me. bwahahaha! :)

..then pumunta na kme sa Bulacan. Movie Marathon, Food Trips, Kwentuhan Blues. what time kme umuwi? 11:00pm. :) haha! Nag-enjoy naman ako.. so okay lng. :)

..sobrang masaya aku kce sobrang welcome si Nath sa family ko. at hindi biro un. kce Unica Iha ako... at mahirap sa relatives ko ang ipagkatiwala agad ako. hehe! :) ..sinabi nila Tita.. "i like Nath.. wag ka na magpalit ng boyfriend. Mukhang mapagkakatiwalaan talaga." whooo.. why not. :)

..actually, my Xmas gift for Nath is ung cellphone. para may pang SUN Cell kme.. ung group. :) so nag plan 999 kme... one for me, one for Nath, tas ung isa, kay Mami.. hehe! :) magiging useful samin un since nasa Laguna siya.. so ayun. :P tsaka para may pang emergency calls na aku. bwahaha!

That's All Folks. :) Good Night!

anu kaya year end post ko? errr. hehe!

Baby Talk.

2006-12-27T01:04:00.000+08:00

phew.. honestly, inaantok na talga ako... kaso ayoko matulog. basta,. dont want to talk creepy. coz i really hate it..

change of topic.

.. we watched Enteng Kabisote kanina. gawd. its not that good like 1 & 2. Wala siyang story. but still, inenjoy ko na lng ang panonood kay bossing. and besides, im with my pretty pamangkin., so okay na din ako. actually first time ko mag take ng ganun responsibility.. to take care of a child, outside the house..and worst case scenario, MALL. i dunno. xempre, todo alaga ako.. kce ayokong patayin ako ng kuya ko kapag may nangyari dun na masama. lalu na siya ang unang pamangkin namin,. aww.. pero im happy din na pinagkatiwala ni kuya ung anak niya sakin.

..speaking of responsibilities, i read Yna's Post about the little child. awww. i felt bad talga. i dunno.. kce tama ba un? ibenta ung bata..? ewan ko ba. i know na hindi ganun kadali magkaron ng baby. but still, gusto ko ng baby... hehe... kaya hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit madali lng sa ibang magulang na ibenta ung anak.. eh samantalang 9months niya tiniis dalhin un diba.? hindi kce rason ang "walang pera" para ibenta ang anak. hayy. ewan ko ba. basta gusto ko ng baby. pero ayoko gumawa. bwahahaha! :) xempre. aral aral muna. tsk tsk. lol.

ciao ciao. punta akong LTO bukas then, Munisipyo ng Cainta. Last day of registratior for voters daw. gawd. tanda ko na. hehe!

Happy Holidays!

2006-12-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

yay.. i got early ngaun.. dunno why.. or maybe, i wasnt able to sleep nice lng talga because of what happend last night. hehe.

Aminado ako. Ako ang umaway. hehe. Inaway ko kce si Nath. sabi nia kce 9:30pm, tapos na ung Xmas party nila sa Samsung. 1:00am na, wala parin siya sa bahay nila. kamusta naman un diba?.. xempre,, tamang hinala ako.. na baka sumama pa siya dun sa xmas party nung department nila.. na ang sabi nia, hindi daw siya pupunta. Ako eto, inaaway siya, na hindi ko man lang alam, naghanap papala siya ng gift for me. hehehe.

..hehe, kasama pa niya si Rodel, ung ka-officemate niya para hanapin ung Dangwa.. nagkanda ligaw ligaw na daw sila.. tapos inaway ko agad siya. hehehe.. im bad. ^_^ pero bumawi naman ako.. sa anong paraan? secret. :) hahaha!!

~~~

my room. now im really upset.. Hindi nakabili ng curtains si mami. so im really upset.. hindi nasunod ung binalak kong wall paint. Then, ung curtains.. blah blah.. Good thing, i have my Spongebob Bed Sheet! (damn, next week ko pa mabibili ung comforter kce wala silang available for Queen Size.) .. hay.. sabi ni Mami, ngayon lng daw ito.. by last week of Jan,, magpipintura na lng daw ulit. ung HOTPINK na. at GREEN na Curtain, plus Spongebob Comforter! pero eto parin ung pictures.

~~~

Merry Christmas All!

random thoughts

2006-12-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

err.. refugee ako ngaun. nakikigamit ako ng kwarto ng may kwarto. hehe. linabas na kce lahat ng gamit ko sa room.. nagpintura na kasi kanina.. though tapos na, hindi ko pa pede ibalik ung mga gamit ko at dun matulog.. kundi ang adik ko na siguro sa amoy ng pintura.. hehe! though i'm a bit upset sa wall paint ko, masaya narin ako... ung dapat HOTPINK na kulay ng wall ko, naiba.. ibang PINK na nga lng.. mas light.. pero ok lng.. dadaanin ko na lng sa curtains and comforter.. hehe!! intrimidita talga eh noh?

..about my last post.. about the girl na nisasabi ko, si Hey-I-dont-brag-but-i-want-you-to-know-that-I'm-the-BEST-Girl ..nevermind na lng.. na-realize ko, right niya ang magsalita ng kung ano2x sa blog nia. if she hates someone , then let her write about it. But kung ako ung ayaw niya (na alam kong ayaw niya sakin, mas ayaw ko sa kanya. :) hahaha! i cant please everybody. the same with her. paskong pasko. bad ang mang-away. :) after xmas na lng.. haha!! okay? lol!

..pauwi na si Nath ngayon from work. I dunno pa kung ano ang magiging plans namin.. kung pano kami magkikita.. ewan.. bahala na.

..speaking of work, i have 90% chance of getting my OJT sa SMART. Nakapaa-pareserve na ako since may kilala si mami na taga Smart. hopefully dun na nga ako. gusto ko talga dun. please pray for me.

..i think, that's all for now.. im looking for some materials na pede ko magamit sa next layout ko. tska wala naman akong ma-post. so ayun. :)

ciao!

2 tulog na lng!!! PASKO NA!